(Dream)

~Current Song Playing~

I Believe I Can Fly by R. Kelly

"This is the last of me, the dreamer, and who I once was....I fly away....wherever it may take me...."~Illusionist Dreamer~

Ill try very hard for this entry to be my last. I dont want to come back here ever again. I plan to leave here in the future to someplace peaceful. I dont like the confusion in my life and yet I kind of like it. I think I had enough of what I can already chew. Its time to call it quits. Even though some part of me doesnt want me to quit, its for the better. I need to change, I want to change! I dont want to be the fool that everybody knows. I dont want to be the idiot that fell in love with a certain girl once. If that change includes hate, I wont regret it at all. I leave this place leaving 2 things. Ill leave a picture on top of my xanga reminding people who I once was. I also leave a song that some of you may know and may not know. I hope you listen to it. It should be able to touch your heart. Some of you may know that the picture is at the lake. Yes it is. That is what Im going to consider the "Remains Of My Love". I feel free, yet broken. Ill always feel this. Now I just sleep and dream and hope one day I wake a new person....

Hopefully in the next life I find you, and yet have you break my heart once more.

Goodbye and Ill forever miss you!

(Dream)

~Current Song Playing~

Kingdom Hearts 2

"...."~Illusionist Dreamer~

"The woman in white clothes will embrace you...."

(Dream)

~Current Song Playing~

Real Emotion by Koda Kumi

"Maybe I shouldnt be afraid anymore. I look in the mirror and I see someone that can accomplish anything. I walk straight into this darkness knowing that I will one day find that light again."~Illusionist Dreamer~

Well, Im back. So many questions in my mind I cant think straight. Ive always had them. I realize that all those questions are tied to one main answer. Depending what the answer is, I can finally find solace in this messed up world. I have many plans and goals to accomplish. But there is one main goal that I always think about, dream about and wonder if that will ever happen. Well, school for me starts pretty soon! A part of me cant wait.

Watch the video! One of my favorites! Its from Final Fantasy X-2! Its in Japanese of course! If I could, I would seriously stand up and dance to this song or sing along! Thats how much I like it! Riaru na sekai ni yureteru kanjyou maketakunai mou tada hashiru shikanai kono mune ni kikoetekuru kimi wa hitori jyanai! What can I do for you?

Lyrics are here! Real Emotion

 A bright future....

(Dream)

~Current Song Playing~

About you by Ayumi Hamasaki

"I am the one who will save you from your final dive. I am the one who will one day make his dreams, and yours a reality"~Illusionist Dreamer~

One of Ayumis newest songs is playing on my page. Watch it or you suck! I hope something good happens to me soon because Im getting bored with my life fast. Long story short, I went with my bud Chim to Gurnne Mills Mall and met up with Lynn. First time we both see her. Oh and Lynn! Chim thinks your so fucking cute! Thats it I guess! Well, I can happily say that my site is dead to some people. I wonder if they know I brought it back. Oh well! Bye now!

The wallpaper I put up is perfect! Im Mamoru (The Guy) sleeping away and dreaming! How much I miss watching Sailor Moon!

 Just thinkin about you....

(Alone)

~Current Song Playing~

Kanariya by Ayumi Hamasaki

"Without love, Ill be frozen in nothingness. I will no longer feel anything."~Illusionist Dreamer~

I want you to want me. I want you to hold me close to your heart. I want you to kiss me. I want to be with you always. I want a chance. I want to love. I want to make my dreams come true. I want to love you once more....

Im so....so....alone....