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| Well, yesterday was my birthday. It was pretty freaking awesome, but today sucks again. I'm so bored, and I seriously want to gag myself just thinking that school starts in a week. I haven't done any reading at all. Oh, well... I'll get it done. Well, just thought I needed an entry.
Bye.
~Mark | | |
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Rent (1996 Original Broadway Cast)
By Jonathan Larson, Jonathan Larson, Tim Weil, Jeff Potter, Anthony Jackson, Daniel A. Weiss, Ira Siegel, Kenny Brescia, Dominique Derasse, Steve Skinner, Adam Pascal, Aiko Nakasone, Anthony Rapp, Byron Utley, Daphne Rubin-Vega, Fredi Walker, Gilles Chiasson, Gwen Stewart, Idina Menzel, Jesse L. Martin, Kristen Lee Kelly, Rodney Hicks, Stevie Wonder, Taye Diggs, Timothy Britten Parker, Wilson Jermaine Heredia
Without You
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I'm just in one of those moods again. This time, though, it feels more permanant than the other times. But, I've had plenty of time to think about stuff, and I've made a decision. There's a BIG difference between wanting something and needing something. I want early birthday presents and to not have to read the summer books, but I need someone to love and someone to love me back. So, I thought I would list what exactly I'm looking for. Here goes...
I need someone who will love me for who I am, even when I'm in a horrible mood or I'm being a huge bitch, and someone whom I can love for who he is, even under those same circumstances. I need someone who won't laugh at me when I make a fool of myself or do stupid things like holding the ketchup bottle throughout my whole meal just so I can put the ketchup on my fries or onion rings one at a time. I need a man that'll kiss me when I'm sleeping. I need somebody who won't apologize for something unless it was his fault. I need someone who will always respect me and my friends. I need someone who will walk me to the door and seriously kiss me like he means it, even if it's in front of his friends. I need somebody who I can be proud to have as my boyfriend, and who will be proud to have me as his boyfriend. I need a boy who will hold me just because. I need someone who can be adventerous, but also timid. I need a guy who likes to do stuff like make out in the rain and hold hands in the movie theatre. I need someone who can be brutally honest with me and tell me that I look like shit when I do and call me out when I make him mad, but won't flip out if I do the same. I need someone who will take completely random walks with me and get lost, but still be happy just because we are together. I need someone who's willing to stand outside in the freezing cold or blowing rain with me while I have a cigarette when I really need one (which isn't very often) and not get mad or impatient. I need somebody who can accept my bad habits and idiosyncracies, and respect me enough to keep to himself how much he's annoyed by them. I need somebody who will play with my hair and let me play with his hair. I need a guy who won't get annoyed with my messiness and who will think it's cute when I actually organize myself a little bit. I need someone who will lay on the couch and watch a movie with me. I need someone who won't make fun of me for any reason. I need somebody who won't get annoyed with the fact that I can be a big flamer at times and who can be just as much a flamer as I am. I need a guy who won't complain when I listen to music really loudly because I need to get it out of me and who won't make fun of me when I want to make a special trip to FYE when we are in the mall because I want to hear the 30 second clip of one song on one album just because it's sticking out in my head. I need someone who knows how to think positively about bad situations and won't get annoyed by my sometimes unbearable negativity. I need somebody who feels that just being together is better than being together and showering each other with expensive gifts or eating at an expensive restaurant. I need somebody who doesn't care that I can get incredibly lazy. Basically, what I'm saying here is, I need someone who loves me.
If you're out there, please get ahold of me somehow.
x3 Mark | | |
| Ok, there are some things I gotta get off my chest. There's some shit flying around and I don't fucking appreciate it. I'm not saying shit about anything, but all of a sudden I'm hearing things that have been said.
Number 3 is really fucking ugly. You look like an old woman who just saw a bug and shit herself.
I am not jealous.
You are a poser.
I am not a poser.
I am not mad.
You are jealous of me.
Everyone hates you.
Everyone tells me how much they hate you.
You are shitting all over the two people who loved you the most and got you the farthest in life.
If I were you, I would shut the fuck up.
You are a liar.
You are a dyke. This is one of the many reasons everyone hates you.
There's more, but I'm done for now...
<3 Mark | | |
| It's been awhile...
Today, I went to Target for the second time ever. I still didn't like it. There's just something about those ugly, wavy, neon lights that irks me. But, I found a book bag there!! Yay!!! Yeah...
My birthday is coming up! 13 days till my birthday, 6 days till I get my new puppy, and 12 days till my first radio show!!
Life is so pointless. Why do I bother to try and act excited?
~Mark <3 | | |
| I know you all were hoping for a big, long, detailed entry describing NYC, but it's not going to happen. I can describe NYC in 2 words: it sucked. Oh, well... At least my Mom is being amazing today. I pulled a "me" yesterday and dropped my cell phone in the pool. I was so pissed. It definitely does not work anymore. So today, my Mom went and talked with her friends at Cellular One, and I got a BRAND NEW PHONE. Like, it's so amazing. She even upgraded my plan. I have wireless internet now! OMG! I'm so excited. People who are wondering: It's the same number. That's also a plus.
Off to play with my new toy...
~Marky Effing Mark | | |
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