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Name: Blueberry
Country: United States
Birthday: 7/4/1978
Gender: Female
Interests: pornography, chatting, art, movies, museums, music, food, film and entertainment, reading
Expertise: procrastinating, spas and saunas, homemade beauty remedies, book collecting
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
6/6/2003
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| tonight in lai have the windows open, its pretty cool and balmy for an la night. for once, no overpriced air conditioner.
1) finished my lacma class. gave me the mojo to get into the museum and sit and draw. need to continue hopefully with drawings of the robinson busts in pasadena.
2) its been about a month or so into classes at ucla and already i am behind (of course). this summer is going by amazingly quickly. i feel like i haven't learned anything, probably b/c my summer has been jam packed.
3) my internship at usc med is slow-going. i'm not really learning anything. my research paper is extremely slow going. m u s t s t a r t. i met the bigget turd micromanaging med school waitlister. i feel compelled to oddly compete with some of the interns even though i probably won't end up going to medical school.
4) my roommate is acting very strangely. she is ignoring me to the point of putting up her bag in front of her face when she walks in front of me. i think this is b/c my room is extremely messy, or did she find my dildo? i dont see what the problem is since the door is closed. i will punish her with a raise in rent lol. its overdue anyhow.
5) i've kept up somewhat with lsat prep and not at all with mcat prep. i've got enough on my plate with class as it is. after micro is over, i'll get to it more.
6) i might apply to an online BSN program with a fall start. price: about 35K. compared to the 3K LVN program, its so expensive. but for the guarantee of the degree and just getting it over quickly with a year long clinical base at one of the local community hospitals, its attractive.
7) i joined equinox gym. they have very good fitness classes of all kinds. i'm enjoying yoga and hope to tryout pilates. another plus is core conditioning and aerobics.
8) i still have to get my ebay/amazon mojo on. i'm sitting on 1K of merch.
9) should i get an iphone?
10) brother is leaving for karolinska institutet medical school for a fall program. perhaps i can save some money to visit him before his year is up.
11) my tennis class is 2 weeks away from being over
12) my college friend is preggies with her first baby. she is an mph working in the clinical trials dept. of a drug co. and her hubby is a computer person/engineer. not sure if i can make it out to the east coast for her shower.
13) i am ignoring my other friend from college. she is visiting a somewhat mutual friend for her wedding overlooking the ocean at rancho palos verdes. i just remember her as being an anal retentive girl (the bride and the friend). i don't feel like spending money on her, although a good steak and lobster dinner with champagne at the beach sounds lovely. dinner with a bunch of asians = boring. the friend is a nurse. the bride is in medical records and her husband is in computers. he's not very successful. but his parents are loaded.
14) i sound very boring
15) work sometimes makes me sick. its not only the working nights with a 12 hour shift. its all of the care i must give to patients, esp. those dying of cancer. its like sometimes i have two conversations going: one with the patient in which i am saccharinely supportive and comforting and the other, i am cussing them out for making me listen to them and poison my ears. when i go home i feel the poison of their ill health (or perhaps all the microbes at the hospital or the chemo they are receiving).
16) i did make it out to wicked at pantages. i left during intermission. i had had a fight with the mother earlier and the play did not catch my attention so much even though i was sitting in orchestra seat E. its really not worth it to pay for those tickets on either the R or L unless you are in the dead center. its even better if you are further away and up in mezzanine, center, and front, probably cheaper too.
17) i am trying to eat at finer restaurants. my attention span has led me to some kabuki happy hours and some walk out sessions during their happy hours when service was too slow. i'm trying for kabuki and i have to try pizzeria mozza in la.
18) must dos:
- dark knight
- transsiberia
- mamma mia
19) i'm in love with "madmen" the tv show on amc.
20) summer trip wants:
- hispanic cancer in san fran
21) fall trip wants:
- plastic surgery nursing conference in chi-town, except the board of this org. is SO FUCKING FAT, i'm wondering how they stay working in the industry. they are not la based.
- ohsu pre-med conference
22) more must dos:
- continuous research into nursing programs, law programs and post-bacc and md
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| latelystarted an internship at usc medical school in psychiatry. pretty boring for now. slow start. perhaps i can sit in on some cases and learn more about the 4 axes. i will be writing a research paper this summer and hopefully can get the university's backing. i will have to read up on how to incorporate nursing statistical research into this and if the center will allow me to use their confidential data at all. it will be a paper on minorities, class and depression.
my second summer project is to write a tax law paper and spruce up my accounting skills.
i actually have about 20 projects i'm doing. too many.
as for study, my classes at ucla have started.
over the break i managed to do a lot of shopping and eating. went to knotts berry farm (please don't go there).
my extracurriculars are tennis in the am and art at lacma on saturdays which is going well.
my goals this summer are to receive A's in my classes, complete my internship and research, do test prep and research nursing programs.
i will indeed start an LVN program in the fall. seems like i'm working backwards academically but so the world turns. promising: no more commute. san diego is a little too sunny for my taste. hopefully in a year i will be making more money, receive my license and be accepted into an RN, BSN or MSN program.
in other news, my brother got accepted into a global medicine/health program in sweden at the universitat swinska medical school at the same time he has gotten fired from his job in journalism. he is now interviewing with a powerful d.c. lobby with a potential salary raise. he should weight his options. do i see a cruise amongst the fjords around the corner?
in personal news, my ill-bred workmates (males) are sexually harassing me making references to sex. one asked me: "do you watch porn? what do you do in your free time?" yes, he did an internet history on my laptop at work. darnit. i tried to act dumb and brush him off but he is an ass. next is another workmate i went to las vegas with. on the trip back home, drawing nearer and nearer to home, he asks, "when was the last time you had sex?" okay, buying me bacardi mojitos at 7/11 and doritos while i pay for the $200 mandalay bay hotel room at theHotel is not going to get you laid. i soon realized the trip was somewhat about sex. i should have known when he most often called me probably after he got his morning wood. so just b/c i paid you a little attention and called you to talk about nursing schools means i want to fuck you?
i seriously need to raise my standards in all things, even people. i'm too nice.
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| latelyim just working a lot at the hospital, trying to pay off some debt
choosing between a possible foreign based rn program here in los angeles VS. a more affordable lvn program
(axed the san diego commute)
plans before summer school:
- downtown disney
- hike in the san gabriels with sheltie
- i signed up for a lacma portraiture class
- huntington library and gardens
- jogging around pasadena (esp. at night where i can look into people's houses)
- getting in as much swim and sun as i can
- fashion island
- robertson? (or do i not want to get stared at by white people?)
- weho
- cabazon and desert hills
- vegas when school starts
- signed up for morning tennis class (how the fuck does another blogger 'rosie' work a 12-16 hour shift and then
get her tennis mojo on? i guess i will soon find out)
- should i go and see wicked?
- maybe rondin in july
- trip to buster's in south pasadena
- do i have time for the beach cities down san diego way and santa barbara?
- knotts berry farm (i love snoopy)
- sending my gf a happy summer wedding card
- san fran in august for a cancer symposium?
- dayam, should i get my mental health internship mojo on this summer? (need to wait for grades)
need to:
- sell my shit on ebay and amazon
- order camera battery and charger
- clean out my car
- get a new license
summer study:
- possibly micro, physio
- gen psych and stats
- if not, math or physics/chem
- lsat/mcat
- need to plan this out more....
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| disturbingit becomes disturbing when i start telling real time in military time, as in i am making this post at 19:11, not 7:11 pm. i asked my manager if its possible to work at the hospital 24hours, instead of "just" a 12 hour shift. she said no b/c this is unsafe and it would go into double time. i don't know what i was thinking.
its also weird but i start measuring the day in terms of 12 hour shifts 7am-7pm / 7pm-7am. its a wonder that the day will fly by during the 12 hours i am not working (where i am eating, sleeping, reading, running errands, doing nothing) vs. working where sometimes even 2 hours goes by very s l o w l y. working a full shift means coming home and attending to your basic needs then getting up and doing the same thing the next day. i wonder if i can work 6 days a week, 12 hours or more each shift. its a different kind of work than sitting at a desk and thinking. you use your body more in nursing and its very task oriented. once one task is finished manually, you face the next task and your patient's situation could change moment to moment, measure for measure. also, working a night shift screws with the clarity of my cognition during the day. i feel kind of wooly.
i wonder what its going to take to start a nursing business. its over my head now.
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| weighing optionsim weighing my options to continue nursing. when i was contemplating quitting, i didn't realize how expensive an lvn is. to offset the cost, i'm considering public programs (this isn't the epitome of academia...you only need a hs diploma). however, many of the programs in better locations have already passed the deadline. i'm stuck with the undesirable locations such as south la and rosemead. its a one year program. however, as experience has shown me, if my classmates are not very serious or achieved, i will find the classes dull and unbearable. when i was completing my cna, this immature snot of a girl would complain against me. that isn't why i quit it. i quit b/c i was taking anatomy at ucla at the time. i quit the rn program b/c i was commuting 4 hours per day and exhausted in addition to the fact that i couldn't stand my hillbilly SON and classmates. it seems i might be stepping into another quagmire. hopefully not. i'm sick of everything. i just need to finish ONE THING.
i'm planning on taking online prereqs to apply to mt. st. mary's RN program as well as to complete prereqs for a direct masters entry program. i don't want to deal with the GRE. i'd rather concentrate on the MCAT and/or LSAT. experience has shown me i tend to spaz out on classes and etc.
the LVN is a full-time M-F program. i still have work. i've reduced the hours to 24 per week, but this hasn't officially been approved by my manager. i'll work on the weekends, hopefully day after the program starts. (explaining to my manager and colleagues why i've stepped down from an RN to an LVN will be embarrassing but necessary). i think i'll take physiology at UCLA in the summer. statistics and gen psych and philosophy online. i might also take physics or precalc online. i'm tempted to do chemistry during the summer but forget it if its accelerated. if i start in september with a cheap public program, i can still apply for the LAC/USC internship. now its a matter of deciding and trying not to do too much.
my plan: wake up and get to exercise everyday and run with sheltie (instead of driving), doing LSAT/MCAT prep morning and nightly, if LVN in summer, take evening and online classes. if LVN in fall, take day, evening and online classes with internship. and of course, work for both scenarios. summer start is weekend day and fall start is nights until fall.
i can't really justify spending 30K on an LVN unless im absolutely forced to. as far as a late start, the money i save on a public program will be worth it. i'm estimating the starting salary differential between the two is about 20-40K. basically, i'm taking one more year to get to my goals.
want to get straight A's in the LVN program to boost my RN/MSN applications and eventually to med school and/or law school. i think i'll be 40 by the time i finish everything or more.
reminder to self: don't do TOO much !!
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Things I Wish I Was Doing Instead
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having wild sex 24/7, doing cocaine, living on the beach, become a gourmet chef, being able to afford stuff on the Robb Report, become a world class dancer or figure skater, make an independent film that that wins many awards, living in the Hollywood Hills, traveling around the world, restoring a villa in Tuscany or Cote d'Azur, living on the Place Riche (sp?), studying at the London School of Economics, shopping in Milan, going on safari in Africa, creating business ventures
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