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Name: just call
Birthday: 10/7/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: aim. bleeding. books with happy endings. eyeliner. friends. hanging out. lipgloss. long stories. love. movies. my chemical romance. razor blades. romance. simple plan. taking back sunday. crying. eating. dashboard confessional. spiderman 1. spiderman 2. play station. grand theft auto. emo boys in emo pants. puppies. yellowcard. thursday. eminem. strawberries. cherries. knee-high socks. sleeping. fighting. crying. listening to music. drinking. talking on the phone. being me. boys.
Expertise: don't think i have one
Message: message me
Member Since:
1/10/2005
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| new xanga
felt a new name comin on, so i just took it
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i fucking love you, you idiot.
don't you get it???
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- love sorry kids, no love today | | |
| i've fallen for him again
DAMN, RUBEN
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crzy emo kd <33 | | |
| im obssessed with green day
especially their song 'give me novacaine'. thats all i listen to over & over on my music player...either that, you're so last summer, or im not okay. taking back sunday, my chemical romance, and green day. three of my favorite bands ever.
today was an okay day, i mean...not the best except for i saw mexican, mexican's CUTE doggy, and jeffrey. alan too, but i see him every day & im mad at him, for everything (read my past entry). i was so happy when i saw jeffrey & mexican, i bumped into them twice today cause i went out around four just to go be with my friend, or maybe more than friend? but both times i only talked to them for 15 minutes through fences so ui couldn't hug them and that makes me sad :(
i actually liked jeffrey at one point, cause we had become really close thanks to kenia, so i liked him, and then i got over it. moved on to andrew, then back to eddie again. then RUBEN ahh!
but back to my jeffrey/mexican story...i saw them both, and alan, i was mad happy...but then i started little by little to think more & more & more about alan and before i knew it, there were tears rolling down my cheeks because i couldn't help but cry about all the shit he has done to hurt me & all the shit i did once before to hurt him. and i felt like a heartless bitch who turned him down & then hipcritically came back asking for him to fall in love with me.
i hate emo felt entries, so im not going to type what i was going to start with..i'll just end it right here with a goodbye, with a hey, with a have a nice day
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| something i emailed someone a close friend;
ruben sort of changed him, you know with the smoking and shit, cause ruben smokes too...but i can accept it from ruben cause i've grown to love him & everything about him, every little detail, every little flaw and i love him. but alan, i expected better and more sweet behavior from him...he was the first boy who accepted me for who i was, and i threw it in his face and then hipocritically grew to start liking, and maybe even loving him. i guess im just not the same person anymore...i have changed, a lot. i mean, all the guys ive done shit with this year made me a lot much of a better person cause i've realized my mistakes & i just don't know why i could ever hurt alan like that because i know now how he felt when i told him "no" & i feel like a heartless, careless bitch.
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