| Me & Nathan broke up today ! =( but im not upset because he doesnt want me to be but in reality it hit me pretty hard but im going to leave it at that...
tomorrow is Katy's birthday & shes turning 16 so everybody wish Katy Summerlin a Happy sweet sixteen !!!
alright back to me & Nathan...im not going to hide it on here because i dont think he reads this well i hope not...but yeah awwww this really extrememly sucks so bad because as most of you know i was falling for him really bad & i guess that got me in trouble because now we're finished ! & im not going to lie...i cried...but its a girl thing..you dump a girl shes going to cry no matter how long you've dated...girls get so attached so easily & quickly & it really blows because guys dont...well most guys at least...this past week has been really bad for some reason...i have no idea what i have done to make God punish me so but i really screwed up or maybe i didnt do anything hes just trying to make me a stronger & better person...well i tell you this after all this is finished with im going to be the strongest person in the state of Louisiana because im going through so much right now & it hasnt even been a day really...ughhhh...life gets you down sometimes...but i got to think positive because there is always a positive & a negative side to everything...lets see...something positive...there is the chance of getting back together...mmm i can find somebody else maybe better((i doubt it)) i can flirt with whoever i want...the negatives...i just lost the greatest boyfriend ever...i have no one to hold me or to make me smile in that special way...the list goes on but i just dont want to get myself down that much...yeah im really trying to be positive right now...& when your reading this im hoping that your not making me sound depressed because im really trying to sound happy in a way...not happy that we broke up but happy for him that he has made up his mind before it got really bad...which i dont understand why he would date me in the first place if he knew he wasnt ready...i really need to talk to him but i havent talked to him since "the break up"...which is another thing to add to the list of "things that suck"....well we can all say that this day has really sucked for me...this whole week ....another positive thing to think about is that God could want us to be apart right now so that he can figure out that he does in fact want to be with me but then again who knows...you just have to live life as it comes & thats what im doing i just wish that i could look in the future...doesnt everybody though ? but then again if we could see in the future whats the point in living life if you know whats coming ? your supposed to make memories in life & you cant make much memories if you know the future because most of us would try & change the future...i know i would but then again that could screw up the futureer lol if that made any sense at all...it did to me...yeah this entry is getting deep...its making me think...i havent really wrote an entry like this before but its really awesome...i hope that im making you think while your reading this because i love to make people think...back to the subject of future...i dont want to grow up but then again i really do want to because i want to start a family which is going to be so awesome...life is amazing if you really stop to think about it...all because of God...hes so awesome...i know i screw up alllll all all the time & hes always forgiving me...i could never ever compare to that...NO ONE can...thats why hes God...thats why hes amazing...thats why we praise him...if you dont know him your really missing out on someone special...i try so hard to be so perfect but people arent going to be perfect because unfortunately everybody screws up...even if some of us think we dont...we really do...gaw...i really like going into deep conversations on this thing...i feel like the people that are going to read this understand me & it makes me feel so much better getting all this out...i hope yall dont take me the wrong way on some of this though...not saying that there is a wrong way to take any of this but yeah...i really want to talk to Nathan right now but im afraid to call him because i dont think that he would like my company too much because today he got on the internet & never said anything to me & got off...so i guess im a bad person...i regret soooo SOOO freaking many things...i really need some help when it comes to being a wonderful girlfriend because thats something i lack the greatness in...i screw up relationships...i really do...put me with the worst person in the world & i can beat them in being the worst person in the world lol i just really want to know whats going on in Nathan's head right now..i dont think that im going to find out tonight though because its almost 9 now & hes starting to go to bed early now...the good thing though is ONE freaking week left until Thanksgiving Break...omg i can NOT freaking wait !!! but i think that im going to Arkansas which i dont really want to go but i do need to get my roots rehighlighted because there like getting really bad...so i HAVE to go...ugh i dont want to go though because of the situation im in now...hopefully i wont have this situation on Thanksgiving Break...who knows...maybe we'll get back together...i highly doubt it though because he's still in love with his first love...which everyone is but he really isnt over it because yeah that hurts to say that...ughhhhhhh...love stinks...makes people scared...im not scared...bring it on!...im ready for anything life has in store for me...heartaches are going to be apart of life so im going to have to get used to it right ? well not right now because this relationship just started & i just decided that im going to do anything & everything in my power to get him back...or maybe i should just lay low & let him realize what hes done...which im sure he knows what hes done...got rid of a pest...i was really mean to him...i know this...i regret it..i do !...are you happy ?! i admitted it...im a bad girlfriend !!! ... always will be...idk what it is but i have this bad habbit of flirting in a mean way...it really sucks because i cant be nice i have to be mean...i dont mean to be rude but i think that some of my problems are due to my past relationship because for a very long time i was just holding on to something that wasnt there...i didnt have feelings for him like that any more & i didnt want to believe that but i kept on trying to make myself love him & you cant do that...& i started being mean to him...anything & everything he did would just make me so freaking mad...the littlest things...so then i came to First Baptist of Keithville...thats when i met Nathan...at first i didnt want to go to that church because i knew that if i kept going to that church that i would start to like him...well i was right...so i dumped my boyfriend & thats when everything between me & Nathan started...and now this is when it all stopped...everyone please pray for me because im having a tough time...so keep me in your prays & thanks for reading this & understanding me...I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH !!!
<3 Britt <3
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| i thought that i would leave yall with some quotes because i got realyl bored today because someONE ((WHITNEY BUTLER!))forgot to call me so yeah here are the ones i liked & thought were cute !! ....
*::Qu0TeS::*
my dream is to hear rocks being thrown at my window x3
and look down and see you standing there in the pouring rain
your perfect because everything
you do.. makes me smile _xo
because he says the sweetest things that
put the pink in my cheeks <3
Have you ever heard a song from long ago with so many memories tied to it that it made you cry? And didn`t you wish that you could go back into that time when everything seemed so much simpler and carefree? Those are the songs that are the soundtracks of our lives...the ones that bring back childhood memories, best friends, first loves, first heartbreaks, the memories.
it takes a billion people
to complete the world;
but it only took y o u<3
to complete m/i/n/e
Sometimes some people run away to be alone, but sometimes they run away to see if you care enough to follow them.
Obstacles are put in our way to see if what we want is worth FiGHTiNG FOR
everytime i [ hear ] your name,
see you in the distance,
think about you, talk about you,
even dream about you.
my HEART beats faster
and i know that i'm in love.
Life is like a pen- you can cross out the past, but you cant erase it.
**i never thought i would *risk*
the chance of getting h.u.r.t again
but for some reason, when i`m with you
it all seems WORTH iT.**
Today I caught myself smiling for no reason... then I realized I was thinking about you.
It’s impossible to find someone who will never hurt you so go for the one whose worth all the pain
Just the thought of being with you
tomorrow is enough to get me
through today.
The first time you fall in love, it changes your life forever and no matter how hard you try.. the feeling never goes away! -The Notebook
and when you ask me what i see in him ...
all i can do is smile, and say <3
"a b s o l u t e l y e v e r y t h i n g."
tell me that youu really
need me & youu want me
& youu miss me & youu
`----»L O V E M.E
wanna tell yOu what im [feeling]
--" but i dOn`t knOw where to start
*i wanna tell yOu that *i.L0ve.y0u*
but im afrAid yOu`ll ::break my heart::
he looked at me with those eyes
and my heart m e l t e d ... you
can't tell me thats not real .. cuz i
f e l t i t...
I've learned that you're in love when you wanna tell everyone about it... even if they didn't ask.
A dream is a wishe your heart makes-Cinderella
((best movie EVER))
all of a sudden
i looked over at him
and realized i love him
it's not telling you how i feel that scares me. it's what you'll say back that does.
you are every reason .. every hope
and every dream ive ever had
and no matter what happens to us in the future
everyday we were together was the greatest day of my life
- the notebook
Me without *him* is like
A nerd WITHOUT braces;
A shoe without l a c e s
asentencewithoutspaces
-the thing i love about you, is that you make me laugh when nothing is funny...
youve got the arms i want around me
.the eyes i want to lose myself in and
the voice i could listen to for hours *..
i wanna be the girl who you;
hit a homerun for.
you score a goal for.
you write a song for.
i wanna be the girl who;
makes you smile.
makes you laugh.
makes your heart skip a beat.
i just want to be l[ that girl ]l
i`m not the girl who runs up to you when i see you
&& i`m not the girl who jumps at every moment to '
talk to you; but i am the girl who keeps it all inside & regrest it later.
There are two types of mints you never turn down in life: breath mints and compliments. Either way, someone is trying to tell you something.
*::THe eND::*
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| HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MARSHELLE ROTH !!!! LOVE YOU GIRL !!!
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| HAPPY TWO MONTHS BRITTANY & NATHAN !!!!
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