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Name: Nicole
Country: United States
State: Ohio
Birthday: 9/7/1988
Gender: Female


Interests: drums. hockey. friends. music. writing. drawing. family. loyalty. honesty. and GIRLS.
Occupation: Other


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Yahoo: NhsDrummer06


Member Since: 2/19/2004

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Thursday, July 08, 2004

So yeah, i stole this from RD... so cry about it!

 

Last person who slept in your bed: um, me

Last person who saw you cry: megan... a loooong time ago
Last person who *made* you cry: my dad
Last person who spent the night at your house: that would be RD
Last person who you shared a drink with: ummmm, i dont remember

Last person who you went to the movies with: i think it was ashie

Last person who yelled at you/who you fought with: i dont know
Last person who sent you an email: some guy named Ashad... yeah, the subject was "occultation stoichiometry broth" wtf?
Ever said I love you and meant it: of course. ive never said it without meaning it
Ever gotten in a fight with an animal or pet: that big ass swan thing at lake ann... it bit me!
Ever been to New York: yup
Ever been to Florida:  yup

California: no
Hawaii: no
Mexico: no
China: holy fuck!
Canada: no
Ever dreamed something and then it happened verbatim the next day: no
Ever wished you were the opposite sex: heh... why not
Ever had an imaginary friend:  no
Last loud/startling noise you heard: the water trying to turn back on...

Last time you went out of the state: last december
The book are you reading now: i dont read

Worst feeling in the world: knowing you hurt someone

First thing you think of when you wake up: i hope no one's home

The number of rings before you answer: ...the phone rings?
Future daughter's name: who said i wanted children??

Future son's name: see above
If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be: building/house/estate designer for a billionaire in new york... hows about donald trump? 

What's under your bed: who knows

What are you most scared of: ...
Clothes you sleep in: usually just a shirt and some boxers... but ill wear pj bottoms if i have to
The last person who called you: kimmy 
Where you want to get married: it depends

If you could change anything about yourself what would it be: EVERYTHING
Who/what you *really* hate: am I an option? 
Favorite number: 0, yes, z.e.r.o    

Favorite room in your house: my room

Favorite song, right now: broken by seether/amy lee
Favorite recent memory: x flight!
Favorite day of the week: friday

Favorite month: january or february... which ever one has more snow
Favorite season: winter

 


ok, ill admit, im happy... extremely...

 


Monday, July 05, 2004

fuck... i fucking fell for her... and i messed up her relationship with amanda... now i feel like a real ass. i just wanna crawl in a hole somewhere and die. honestly.

 

why did i have to do that? why the fuck did i do that?!

 

ok, so i dont regret it... not one bit... but i do regret hurting amanda. god i just wanna die...


Monday, June 28, 2004

[.001. ] first name: Nicole
[ .002. ] middle name: Christine
[ .003. ] last name: Pillitiere
[ .004. ] nickname(s): Nickie, Sped, Puddy (dont ask), nicolie, nicolica (all family! i swear!)
[ .005. ] gender: female
[ .006. ] age: 15
[ .007. ] birthday: 9.7.88
[ .009. ] hair color: dark brown
[ .010. ] eye color:  blue/grey/green,,, it depends
[ .011. ] race: white
[ .012. ] do you wear glasses or contacts: contacts
[ .013. ] do you have braces: no
[ .014. ] is your hair long or short: just below the ears
[ .015. ] where were you born: Akron general
[ .016. ] current location: norton
[ .017. ] zodiac sign: virgo
[ .018. ] how many languages do you know: ingles y espanol
[ .019. ] nationality: whoa, i could be here all day.... italian, irish, welsh, ukraine, and dutch... (for the most part)
[ .020. ] bad habits: nail biting, thinking everything is my fault, paranoia
[ .021. ] piercings you have: ears
[ .022. ] piercings you want: more done in the ears, and lip ring
[ .023. ] tattoos you have: none... yet
[ .024. ] tattoos you want: one of my original designs (yes i desing tatoos) on my leg
[ .025. ] today's date: may 3rd
[ .026. ] the time: 6:41pm
[ .027. ] ready for a bunch more questions: sure
. : family : .
[ .028. ] mother's name: Robin
[ .029. ] father's name: Jim
[ .030. ] step-parent's names, if any: Ronny
[ .031. ] brother's name:
[ .032. ] sister's name:
[ .033. ] favorite aunt: um, no

[ .034. ] favorite uncle: and again... no
[ .035. ] favorite grandparent: my grandma "freebie"

[ .036. ] worst relative: dunno

[ .037. ] best relative: dunno
[ .038. ] do you get along with your parents: yeah

[ .039. ] does anyone in your family understand you: yeah
. : pets : .
[ .040. ] do you have any pets: dog and fish
[ .041. ] what are their names: bear (dog) and i dont name the fish
[ .042. ] what kind of animals are they: duh
[ .043. ] do you want more animals: hell no!
[ .044. ] what kind:
. : school : .
[ .045. ] are you still in school: yeah
[ .044. ] did you drop out:
[ .045. ] current GPA, or last GPA you got: 3.029... or something
[ .046. ] favorite grade: i have to have a favorite?
[ .047. ] least favorite grade: freshman year
[ .048. ] favorite teacher: Santelli
[ .049. ] least favorite teacher: Vaill, or Sours
[ .050. ] favorite subject: Art
[ .051. ] least favorite subject: LA II CP
[ .052. ] do/did you buy lunch or bring it: i dont eat lunch



[ .053. ] play any sports on the school's team: no
[ .054. ] do/did you do any extracurricular ativities: um, band...
[ .055. ] are/were you popular: sorta kinda...
[ .056. ] favorite dance: never attended a dance cos they suck!
[ .057. ] favorite memory: dunno
[ .058. ] least favorite dance: freshman year formal
[ .059. ] least favorite memory: dunno
[ .060. ] most humiliating moment: um, i fell over the directors box with my bass drum on...
. : favorites : .
[ .061. ] number: 0 (dunno why)
[ .062. ] clothing brand: old navy
[ .063. ] shoes: adidas
[ .064. ] saying: ...

[ .065. ] TV show: MADE
[ .066. ] sport: hockey
[ .067. ] vegetable: (cooked) broccli
[ .068. ] fruit: apples
[ .069. ] movie: dunno
[ .070. ] magazine: dunno
[ .071. ] actor: nicholas cage
[ .072. ] actress: julia stiles (hot!)
[ .073. ] candy: mike and ikes
[ .074. ] gum: juicy fruit
[ .075. ] scent: white water (this cologne stuff that i like)
[ .076. ] candy bar: dont really like chocolate... but i guess crunch bar
[ .077. ] ice cream flavor: chocolate chip
[ .078. ] color: blue
[ .079. ] season: winter
[ .080. ] holiday: i guess.... haloween
[ .081. ] band: blink 182, linkin park, story of the year
[ .082. ] singer: ummm, i guess kelly clarkson (also hot!)
[ .083. ] group: uhh
[ .084. ] rapper: dont like rap
[ .085. ] type of music: rock/metal/punk
[ .086. ] thing in your room: my bed probably
[ .087. ] place to be: dunno
[ .088. ] radio station: 104.1 or 88.1
[ .089. ] tv channel: mtv
[ .090. ] junk food: crackers of some sort
[ .091. ] overall food: chinese or seafood
[ .092. ] store: best buy or spencers
[ .093. ] shoe brand: adidas
[ .094. ] fast food: taco bell baby!
[ .095. ] restaurant: red lobster
[ .096. ] shape: huh?
[ .097. ] time of day: 4pm
[ .098. ] country: Russia
[ .099. ] state: New York
[ .100. ] boys name: Skyyler
[ .101. ] girls name: Caitlin
[ .102. ] mall: Indianapolis mall
[ .103. ] video game: battlezone ii for pc
[ .104. ] shampoo: vo5 (dont laugh dani!)
[ .105. ] board game: i WONT say yahtzee... i WONT... ok, yahtzee (dani!)
[ .106. ] computer game: look up
[ .107. ] car: mazda miata
[ .108. ] music video: too many to think of
[ .109. ] swear word: damn
[ .110. ] word: pnuemonoultramicroscopicsylicovalconiconiosis (yes, it IS a word!)
[ .111. ] month: january
[ .112. ] cartoon character: dunno 
[ .113. ] scary movie: 13 ghosts
[ .114.] sports team: columbus blue jackets
[ .115. ] possession: umm
.:What's the first thing that comes to mind when you hear : .
[ .116. ] eminem: red and yellow
[ .117. ] dog: furry
[ .118. ] hot: tssssss.
[ .119. ] Britney Spears: fake
[ .120. ] Nsync: fuck you
[ .121. ] real world: rawr
[ .122. ] orange: peel
[ .123. ] choice: um,,, um,,,
[ .124. ] duck: moo
[ .125. ] stink: bo
[ .126. ] black: goth
[ .127. ] icq: say wha?
[ .128. ] insane clown posse: :blank stare:
[ .129. ] linkin park: rawk!
[ .130. ] jack: shanor
[ .131. ] rainbow: pride!
[ .132. ] cherry: do you REALLY want me to go there?
[ .133. ] cucumber: manicure, or wait, or is that pedicure... i dunno, anything-cure!
[ .134. ] shark: teeth
[ .135. ] lifehouse: fallin even more in love with you.. letting go of all ive held on to.. im standin here until... oh, sorry
[ .136. ] bat: nocturnal
[ .137. ] leather: biker boi
[ .138. ] whip: cream!
[ .139. ] america: anti
[ .140. ] water: i gotta pee!
[ .141. ] volcano: boom
. : this or that : .
[ .142. ] rock or rap: rock
[ .143. ] rock or pop: rock
[ .144. ] rock or r&b: rock
[ .145. ] rock or metal: rock
[ .146. ] rap or pop: pop
[ .147. ] rap or r&b: rap
[ .148. ] rap or metal: metal
[ .149. ] pop or r&b: pop
[ .150. ] pop or metal: metal
[ .151. ] r&b or metal: metal
[ .152. ] Linkin park or limp Bizkit: lp
[ .153. ] tool or Korn: korn
[ .154. ] Selena or Jennifer Lopez: j lo
[ .155. ] hot or cold: cold
[ .156. ] winter or summer: winter
[ .157. ] spring or fall: fall
[ .158. ] Shakira or Britney: britney
[ .159. ] icp or Eminem: eminem
[ .160. ] Marilyn Manson or rob zombie: marilyn manson
[ .161. ] kittie or garbage:  kittie
[ .162. ] MTV or vh1: MTV
[ .163. ] Buffy or angel: Buffy
[ .164. ] Dawson's creek or Gilmore girls: dc
[ .165. ] football or basketball: football..
[ .166. ] summer olympics or winter olympics: winter
[ .167. ] skiing or snowboarding: snowboarding
[ .168. ] rollerblading or skateboarding: blading
[ .169. ] black or white: black
[ .170. ] orange or red: red
[ .171. ] yellow or green: yellow
[ .172. ] purple or pink: noooo!
[ .173. ] slipknot or mudvayne: mudvayne
[ .174. ] hot topic or pac sun: hot topic
[ .175. ] inside or outside: inside
[ .176. ] weed or alcohol: alcohol
[ .177. ] cell phone or pager: cell
[ .178. ] pen or pencil: pencil
[ .179. ] power puff girls or Charlie's angels: charlies angels..
[ .180. ] Scooby doo or Dino: SCOOBY DOO!
[ .181. ] dragon ball z or pokemon: um... no
[ .182. ] star wars or star trek: star wars



[ .183. ] tattoos or piercings: piercings
[ .184. ] prep or punk: punk
[ .185. ] slut or whore: whore
. : private life : .
[ .186. ] do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: no
[ .187. ] do you have a crush: yes..
[ .188. ] do you love anyone right now: yes
[ .189. ] have you ever been in love: i guess
[ .190. ] who was your first kiss: merinda
[ .191. ] how many hearts of have you broken: 2
[ .192. ] how many people broke your heart: 2
[ .193. ] best quote to sum up love: ...
[ .194. ] so what is your bf/gf/crush like: heh
[ .195. ] do you have a picture of him/her: yes
[ .196. ] do you have a picture of yourself: yes
[ .197. ] do you go by looks or personality: personality
[ .198. ] ever kiss a friend: no
[ .199. ] are you still friends:
[ .200. ] so moving along.. do you smoke: no
[ .201. ] do you smoke weed: no
[ .202. ] ever trip on acid: no
[ .203. ] how about a little x: nope
[ .204. ] crack, heroin, anything else: no
[ .205. ] beer good or beer bad: gross



[ .206. ] are you the sissy who drinks wine coolers: probably
[ .207. ] do you like Smirnoff ice: no
[ .208. ] prefer beer or liquor: ummm, dunno
[ .209. ] what kind of cigarettes do you smoke:



. : would you ever : .
[ .210. ] bungee jump: sure
[ .211. ] sky dive: yes
[ .212. ] swim with dolphins: yes
[ .213. ] scuba dive: its fun!
[ .214. ] go rock climbing: haha, no.
[ .215. ] eat shit for $1,000,000: fuck no



[ .216. ] turn your back on your friends for personal gain: no
[ .217. ] steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: fuck
[ .218. ] cross-dress: i already do (well, sorta)
[ .219. ] lie to the police: yes
[ .220. ] run from the police: yes
[ .221. ] lie to your parents: yes
[ .222. ] walk up to a stranger and kiss them: will you give me 50 dollars?
[ .223. ] be an exotic dancer: hahahaha... no
[ .224. ] walk out of a restaurant without paying: no
[ .225. ] streak: no
. : your friends : .
[ .226. ] best friend: um.. i dont have one
[ .227. ] known longest: Jessica
[ .228. ] wish you talked to more: Brittany
[ .229. ] wish you saw more: same
[ .230. ] how many friends do you think you have: a shit load
[ .231. ] who drives you insane after a while: chad!
[ .232. ] who can you be around forever and never get annoyed? lots of people
[ .233. ] ever lose a good friend because you took it to the 'next level': say wha?
[ .234. ] can always make you laugh: sara
[ .235. ] hot tempered: me!
[ .236. ] most impatient: me!.
[ .237. ] shortest: jenn
[ .238. ] tallest: joel for sure!
[ .239. ] skinniest: ace
[ .240. ] nicest: megan
[ .241. ] best personality: umm... yeah
[ .242. ] biggest drug user: n/a
. : have you ever : .
[ .243. ] flashed someone: no
[ .244. ] told the person you liked how you felt: yes
[ .245. ] been to Michigan: no
[ .246. ] gotten really wasted: no
[ .247. ] gone to jail or juvi: no
[ .248. ] skateboarded: no
[ .249. ] skinny dipped: no
[ .250. ] stolen anything: yes
[ .251. ] wanted to kick my ass for making this so long: yes
[ .252. ] kicked someone's ass: sooo freaking close
[ .253. ] pegged someone in the head with a snowball: yes
[ .254. ] broke a beer bottle: yes
[ .255. ] gotten into a bar, under-aged: yes
[ .256. ] kissed someone: yes
[ .257. ] flipped someone off: yes
[ .258. ] gone on a road trip: yes
[ .259. ] gone on vacation without adult supervision: no
[ .260. ] been to a concert: yes
[ .261. ] been to another country: no
[ .262. ] talked back to an adult: um, no
[ .263. ] got pulled over: no
[ .264. ] go in a car accident: i wasnt actually driving, but yes
[ .266. ] given money to a homeless person: yes
[ .267. ] tried to kill yourself: yes
[ .268. ] cried to get out of trouble: i guess
[ .270. ] kissed a brother or sister's friend: no
[ .271. ] dropped something on the floor that you were cooking and let someone eat it anyways: no.. im not THAT mean
. : opinions : .
[ .272. ] what do you think...about pop music: no
[ .273. ] about boy bands: fuck that!
[ .274. ] about flag burning: rock on
[ .275. ] of the war on terrorists: bush, you suck!
[ .276. ] about suicide: do i haveta?
[ .277. ] about people who try to force their opinions on you: they suck
[ .278. ] about abortion: no
[ .279. ] about rock/metal music: \m/
[ .280. ] where do you think you'll be in 10 years: dont know
[ .281. ] who do you think you'll still be friends with in 5 years: dont know. : what did you do : .
[ .282. ] last birthday: i had a big ass party where everyone from school was invited... no joke!

[ .283. ] yesterday: like i remember
[ .284. ] last weekend: gay prom
[ .285. ] Christmas: opened a shitload of stuff


Monday, May 03, 2004

[ .286. ] thanksgiving: donno
[ .287. ] New year's eve: dont remember
[ .288. ] Halloween: and again.. dont remember
[ .290. ] valentine's day: um, no
. : the last :
[ .289. ] easter: sucked
[ .292. ] thing you drank: water
[ .293. ] thing you wore: really baggy jeans, and a nyc/mtv shirt
[ .294. ] place you went: school
[ .295. ] thing you got pierced/tattooed: my ears
[ .296. ] person you saw: um, erynne
[ .297. ] song you heard: until the day i die -- story of the year
. : now : .
[ .300. ] what are you eating: nothing
[ .301. ] what are you drinking: nothing
[ .302. ] what are you wearing: ...nothin ;)
[ .303. ] any shoes on: i dont wear shoes in my freaking house
[ .304. ] hair: straightened
[ .305. ] listening to: the keyboard! wheee!
[ .306. ] talking to anyone: no
[ .307. ] are you pissed i made this so long: yes
. : yes or no : .
[ .308. ] are you a vegetarian: no
[ .309. ] do you like cows: yes
[ .310. ] are you a bitch: no
[ .311. ] are you artistic: yes
[ .312. ] do you write poetry: yes
[ .313. ] are you a fast runner: not really
[ .314. ] can you ski: kinda
[ .315. ] are you British: no
[ .316. ] do you want to spear Britney: say wha? 
[ .317. ] do the voices talk to you: theyre telling me that you're hair looks funny
[ .318. ] did you ever give Barbie a haircut: i never owned a barbie in my life
[ .319. ] would you eat mac &cheese with hot dogs in it: no
[ .320. ] do you think disney creators were on acid when they made 'alice in wonderland': YES
[ .321. ] are you straight: im as straight as that there rainbow right thur
[ .322. ] are you stupid, insane, and another physically handicapped: stupid is my middle name!
[ .323. ] do you own a hot pink shirt: pink sucks
[ .324. ] how about orange pants: no
[ .325. ] can you see the flying monkeys: ....
. : random questions : .
[ .326. ] if you could be any animal, what would you be: pirahna
[ .327. ] if you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?: chinese!
[ .328. ] do you remember any of your dreams: yes (danielle! ;))
[ .329. ] do you dream in color or black and white: color
[ .330. ] do you admit when you need help with a problem: sometimes
[ .331. ] can people read you like a book: why dont you ask daniell! ;)
[ .332. ] what's your biggest fear: drowning
[ .333. ] do you talk a lot: eh, not really
[ .334. ] are you afraid of clowns: no
[ .335. ] do you like spiders: no
[ .336. ] how about grape Kool-aid: i guess
[ .337. ] can you drive: yes
[ .338. ] are you spoiled: not really
[ .339. ] are you anti-social: i can be
[ .340. ] do you see dumb people: well, i see myself in the mirror, sooo.
[ .341. ] do you see dead people: its getting cold
[ .342. ] any last words: do the monkey with me!



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