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| I don`t feel safe letting people I don`t know, read my shit so I`m gonna make my xanga private now. Only friends can view it...BYE. | | |
| "You know it`z love when all you want is that person to be happy even if you`re not part of their happiness..."
The thing`z I worry about are not even close to what other people are dealing with (ie. loved one`z that die in the war, tsunami victims...etc.) so I`m moving on because it`z pointless to make my friends worry and I know I can take care of myself =] so...HAH, I need to be there for them.
I lubb my "big brother" Paulo for talking to me and helping me; I lubb Jennifer for always making me laugh and always being there =); and I lubb Hendrix for always cheering me up; I don`t want you guys to have to listen to me whine anymore. Sorry for all that I put you guys through...
I`m over the whole, "If we don`t get out grades up, we won`t have electives next year...." crap. I`ll turn to Evergreen or Oak Grove and Santa Teresa can kiss....my....ass. Plus my animation teacher lives a few blocks down o_O;; ...`tiz crazy.
I can`t wait. I`m gonna apply for my permit this March...hopefully. Then maybe by next school year, I`ll have my car =] Whoo...
....and like I said:
i`m far from lonely
<33 nichelle ;; | | |
| I can`t believe myself...I`ve been bitin` people`z headz off like crazy this week =\ Thanks for all the people that have been there...I lubb you all! -sigh-
After one problem is solved, something new comes along and if you`ve noticed, I`ve been grumpy this whole week...and I don`t think I`ve been PMsing so...this is gay. After I told him how I really felt, he said that now I don`t have to worry about it. Don`t have to worry about it, my ASS, thing`z only got worse. Now he won`t even talk to me. During lunch, he hella blew me off! I was talking to him...or atleast I thought I was...and he was walking sort of behind me, but when I turned around, I saw him walk in the other direction so the whole f`ckin` time, I was talking to myself. On top of that, this guy goes bragging to him about how he walks me to YMCA and I think he rubbed it in way too much. From now on, I ain`t talkin` to that @(#&(%$ about him anymore cuz he`z f`ckin` ruinin` everything now.
BS! Plus there`z this thing about next year and how we might not have Animation if our f`ckin` test scores don`t go up. FUCK! I have so many thing`z going on in my mind...I still haven`t really worked on the Safe on the Job poster....I`ve been doing my homework at 12 at night....I don`t know anymore!
See, sabi ko nga ehh! YOU PROMISED YOU WOULDN`T GET MAD! This is gay! Bs, BS, BS!!!!!!!!!!!
Sum 41 ~ Pieces
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I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don’t believe it makes me real
I’d thought it’d be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things I said
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own
This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy that nothing can save me
But it’s the only thing that I have
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own
I tried to be perfect
It just wasn’t worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It’s hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own
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| It`z funny...sometimes I`m never satisfied with my life no matter how well thing`z are going. So what the hell do I want now? I have certain friendz that I really want to be close to...but it`z like I`m doing something wrong. I`m too quiet, that`z why they never really turn to me...so I know I`m never being thought of. I know it`z a silly thing to worry about but I never really felt special to someone (not in a relationship kind of way...ehh). -sigh- I hate my low self-esteem! I really REALLY DO >=[ ARGHHH`~#&(*%)$&^)&)_*@#@#!!!
I hate how I look...I look like I`m fuckin` crazy...I`m gonna dye my hair lighter so that my face won`t looked as fucked up. I hate how fat I`ve gotten...I`m gonna work out till I puke my f`ckin` guts out. I hate how quiet I am...I might as well just shut the fuck up for the rest of my damn life...I donno. Leave me alone....
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Had a bad day, don't talk to me,
gonna ride this out,
My little black heart, breaks apart,
with your big mouth.
And I'm sick of my sickness
Dont touch me, you'll get this.
I'm useless, lazy, perverted,
and you hate me.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call,
And everything, everything's my fault.
Went to the doctor, and I asked her,
to make this stop.
Got medication, a new addiction,
Fucken thanks a lot.
Had to relapse, I'm outta rehab,
It ruined everything.
So point your finger, at the singer,
He's in the pharmacy.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call ,
and everything's my fault.
You can't save me,
You can't blame me,
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
and everything, and everthing's my fault.
And I'm a death threat haven't slept yet,
Baby wide awake at dawn.
Helmet bad boy, tell the tabloids,
everything's my fault.
Whoa whoa yeah, write it write it,
Whoa whoa yeah, write it write it,
Whoa Whoa everthing's my fault,
everthing's my fault.
I went to heaven, couldn't get it,
For what I had done.
I said forsake me, you said you're crazy
you were too much fun.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call ,
and everything's my fault.
You can't save me,
You can't blame me,
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
and everything,everthing's my fault.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
You can't save me,
You can't change me,(everthing's my fault)
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Everything's my fault.
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Save Me ~ Unwritten Law
< / 3 nichelle ;; | | |
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