shaking hips and busting lips

i think i found myself again

come visit me at my new home www.myspace.com/candyinmyheelsx

i cant write here because a certain *cough cough* someone can see it.

just watch all my wildest dreams come true
not a single one involving you

the brightest corners of your mind
                   are always the worst
when you step into the dark

he handed me the gun
shiny taunting decieving
he fondled my trigger
bright hopeful believing
now i'm on the floor

i might as well just
drown in your blood

you raise the blade
you make the change
rearrange me till i'm sane

this will be my last entry
i've found out so many things
in the past 10 months
i'm new reborn alive
real
this is so much more than love
and we'll find the answers to everything
we'll forget tennessee
we'll forget tennessee
call me naive
go ahead
no one thought this would last
i am happy
i am in love
i cant even explain how i feel
he knows
he knows and we'll buy our land for sale
we'll live in our picture
purple pink green yellow blue
no one knows but him
and i like it like that
and no
there will be no new xanga
no livejournal no my space
thank you all for your support and love
but i dont need it anymore
i found what i had been looking for

we woke
behind the same wheel
behind the same cracked glass
you look so amazing
cowboy hat and barefoot
baby
how could they have passed you up
give you up for boys with lip rings
and saturday night drinks
          &&now your mine

and this is it
this is love

end.

i dreamt last night
that you left me.
i waited
alone
in your basement
waited all night
for you.
last night i dreamt
that these bruises around
my neck were just
make believe.

today
i woke alone.

i have nothing left to say.

                           ((soon i will disappear))

i used to be the bell of the ball
dance on air, twirl swirls around you
and baby you used to sniff the air
after i passed, wondering
where
i could be headed in such a hurry.
i used to be on top of it all
looking down at all the faded
lights, the city at my fingertips.
i thought i had it all.
bloody nose and swollen tongue 
i thought i had it all
medicine for my aching heart
everynight
pills for something that was never wrong

oh baby we had it all
didnt we
under that morning moon
those empty highways
those empty bathrooms
those empty eyes
        i was empty

until you took me on a drive
away from all of this
fucked up town
i sat in the passanger seat
screaming at the trees
screaming drive faster

whatever i said to make you think
that love's the religion of the weak
this morning we'll love like weaklings
    the worst is over