Thursday, August 23, 2007

  • A dying breed?

    I have a hunch this xanga has met it's end.  I've been xanga-ing for a little over 4 years, staring with my first xanga, http://www.xanga.com/oustide_chick, back in high school, and starting this one in college.  Most of my friends have moved on to myspace (gag) and I've been blogging a bit via blogger.  I'm not shutting it down, but I'd like to point any readers in two new directions.

    1 - my blogger account: foriamhis.blogspot.com

    2 - for those with any sort of academic theological interests, Jake and his friends have started a new blog (which I *highly* recommend.  I'm sure they'd love some questions and conversation.)  21stcenturytabletalk.blogspot.com

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

  • a recap of the summer

    Things I did and accomplished this summer:

    • Reading - and lots of it... Finished A Clash of Kings, muah. :)  In the middle of about 500 thousand other books still.
    • went with Jake for my first tandem skydive.
    • After jumping out of an airplane, I figured roller coasters couldn't be too scary, and went with the college class from my church to enjoy my first (10 or so) roller coaster(s).
    • One heck of an awesome internship at IBM.  Gained a lot of confidence in myself, grew a lot, was stretched a lot, and feel I have some guidance in where I might want to go with this career.
    • a wonderful week with Megan.
    • a discipleship with Miss Beth who taught me so much
    • Grew a TON in my spiritual walk. Between my own growth, largely fostered by the discipleship and Jacob's growth as well, I couldn't help but just become obsessed... I'm nervous that the passion is starting to fade, and I need to work to keep it.
    • Beach trip with Emma and Bobby.    We didn't call them as much as we had planned though :(
    • Celebrated Jake and I's Two Year Anniversary!  yeah baby!
    There was a lot more, of course, this was just a few high points I could recall right off.  Mmmmm, need to pack.



Tuesday, August 07, 2007

  • Thoughts from my drive home

    So mom and I went over to Lifeway and Family Christian today in an attempt to get a copy of Basics for Believers (DA Carson's exposition on Philippians).  They didn't have it at either place.  Family Christian's former theology section has now been replaced by a large shelf of children's videos... and I was thinking as I sat in my car staring at the huge poster on their front window, reading, "Pre-order your copy today!  Joel Olsteen's Become a Better You! Only $17.99!"

    There are people in the world dying for this gospel, and we bastardize it into selfish American greed.

    People are dying from hunger all over the world, but clearly what God wants is for you to buy *another* Lexus.

    Christ died on the cross to take away my sins and he loves me as his child, but we say that you can just take and worship money so long as you tithe big enough.

    People across the world pray for just one full copy of this Word of God and I can't be bothered to open it for an entire week.

    I suppose you can tell this was a kinda convicting train of thought.  The church needs reformation.  But my heart needs it first.

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

  • Ahh, life.

    I watched Jamie and William's wedding video - well, the video of their wedding pictures... and cried.  Everyone's getting married again.  And the ages are getting closer to mine.  There are babies happening everywhere as well...  Jake and I have been talking about the future again.  It's getting closer and it scares and thrills me at the same time.  I am so excited to get married!  The wedding, the dress, the cake, the friends, the flowers... and him.  Him standing there looking so nervous and like he's winning a million dollars.  Aaah, wedding pictures get me every time. 

    Enough girlish fancies... it's dream time.

Sunday, July 08, 2007

  • Today Jacob preached his first "for real" sermon.  He did an amazing job, I was soooo proud of him!    We got taken out to lunch by Scott and his wife, Lois, which was so fun.  We went to Bear Rock Cafe and ran into 4 other couples from our church and we all ate together.  Jake said tonight, "Never before have I been in a place where I have experienced the love of Christ through his people, like I do at this church."  I agree completely.  It has been so wonderful.  I really do just feel like a big ginormous family there. 

    Tomorrow is Jacob and I's two year anniversary!  w00t!  We made it.  hehe.  So that shall be fun-ness!!  mmmmkay.  I think it's bedtime.  Just wanted to update.

Saturday, June 23, 2007

  • For I am fearfully and wonderfully made...

    Jake and I went to see the Bodies Exhibit here in Durham yesterday.  It was pretty crazy.  At first I was having trouble comprehending that they were real.  I was also overwhelmed by the intricacy of the body.  The handful of comments about evolution floored me.  How can you stare at something that intricate and really think that it's evolved.  That evolution is some pretty mystical powerful stuff, I guess.  I never really studied biology - one class in high school and if I learned anything I certainly forgot it, so this was really incredible for me.  Towards the end there was an exhibit with a warning - it was the one about fetal development.  Jake stopped to make sure I wanted to go in, and I did.  I really didn't think it was going to bother me, but seeing all those children...  and thinking about abortion as well.  The last room was also a little much.  I don't think Jacob and I really saw half of it.  We stepped out a little early.

    Overall I'm glad I went.  I think what made me need to leave at the end was a combination of things.  The fetal exhibit hit me a lot harder that I was expecting it to.  My allergies started acting up and even light was bothering me and making me feel sick.  And for most of the exhibit, it was done very tactfully, respectfully and everyone there was very respectful.  However, towards the end we kept running into these two loud women who kept making comments like, "dude this is so cool!".  It was cool.  It was thrilling.  But it was something that needed to be thought, not said (over and over in a loud voice).  Also, I think the last room was the most overwhelming for me, and with all those other factors, I just couldn't do it anymore.

    So if you have the chance to go, I would suggest you do it.  There's a student discount (although it's not much, and it's pretty expensive.)  But it was really worth it.  I learned a lot and was able to worship God for his amazing design and it really made me want to take care of myself.  Just be forewarned that it may be a little tough.  But sometimes we need things that are a little tough, right?

Thursday, June 21, 2007

  • Currently Listening
    Redemption Songs
    By Jars of Clay
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    An update

    Been super busy.

    Jacob and I have been getting so close lately.  I thought we were close before, but things have just been... yeah.  We're memorizing the shorter catechism together. w00t!

    Miss Beth is my pastor's wife.  She's started discipliing me.  That woman is amazing.  She says so many good things that I need to hear.  Really it's been incredible.  I think it's really important to really seek out a discipleship type relationship with someone that you respect like that.  She's been pointing me towards who I am without Christ, who I am in Him and seeking the scriptures to find out what type of woman of God I'd like to be.

    Work has been good.  Today was not so good, though.  I messed up and I made some people pretty unhappy, but it doesn't look like they're going to fire me, so that's good.  I hope I can at least take a lot from this in experience.

    It's been super great getting back to my church.  I'm playing violin this Sunday! (I can't wait!!!)  So yeah, things have been going well.

    So that's my update. 

Monday, June 11, 2007

Saturday, June 09, 2007

  • Currently Reading
    A Synthesis of the Russian Brainwashing Manual on Psychopolitics
    By David Todeschini
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    Communism at its finest...

    I re-read a quote today that struck me, I think, with more emphasis than it had in the past. I think it's worth your 3-5 minutes.

    It's from the Russian Textbook on Psychopolitics - this part is specifically about changing the loylaties of the youth of a nation in order to bring in Communism.

    psychopolitics -the art science asserting maintaining dominion over thoughts loyalties individuals, officers, bureaus, masses, and effecting the conquest of enemy nations through "mental healing".

    In rearranging loyalties we must have a command of their values. In the animal the first loyalty is to himself. This is destroyed by demonstrating errors to him, showing him that he does not remember, cannot act or does not trust himself. The second loyalty is to his family unit, his parents and brothers and sisters. This is destroyed by making a family unit economically non-dependent, by lessening the value of marriage, by making an easiness of divorce and by raising the children whenever possible by the State. The next loyalty is to his friends and local environment. This is destroyed by lowering his tru st and bringing about reportings upon him allegedly by his fellows or the town or village authorities. The next is to the State and this, for the purposes of Communism, is the only loyalty which should exist once the state is founded as a Communist State. To destroy loyalty to the State all manner of forbidding for youth must be put into effect so as to disenfranchise them as members of the Capitalist state and, by promises of a better lot under Communism, to gain their loyalty to a Communist movement.

    Denying a Capitalist country easy access to courts, bringing about and supporting propaganda to destroy the home, creating and continuous juvenile delinquency, forcing upon the state all manner of practices to divorce the child from it will in the end create chaos necessary to Communism.

    Under the saccharine guise of assistance to them, rigorous child labor laws are the best means to deny the child any right in society. By refusing to let him earn, by forcing him into unwanted dependence upon a grudging parent, by making certain in other channels that the parent is never in other than economic stress, the child can be driven in his teens into revolt. Delinquency will ensue.

    By making readily available drugs of various kinds, by giving the teen-ager alcohol, by praising his wildness, by stimulating him with sex literature and advertising to him or her practices as taught at the Sexpol, the psychopolitical operator can create the necessary attitude of chaos, idleness and worthlessness into which can then be cast the solution which will give the teen ager complete freedom everywhere --Communism

    Should it be possible to continue conscription beyond any reasonable time by promoting unpopular wars and other means, the draft can always stand as a further barrier to the progress of youth in life, destroying any immediate hope to participate in his nation's civil life.

    By these means the patriotism of youth for their Capitalistic flag can be dulled to a point where they are no longer dangerous as soldiers. While this might require many decades to effect, Capitalisms short term view will never envision the lengths across which we can plan.

    If we could effectively kill the national pride and patriotism of just one generation, we will have won that country. Therefore, there must be continual propaganda abroad to undermine the loyalty of the citizens in general and the teen-ager in particular.

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