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| Friday's finally here. It's been a really long week, I must say. Tuesday to Thursday with nothing to do. Yeah. & Teachers' Day today. We had class time from 0740h to 0900h, then recess for the next 40? Omg. I was like stoning & doodling throughout. The celebration was pretty okay, I guess. Parts of it was actually funny. But I was really tired & my head hurt. RAH. So most of the time, I was just waiting for it to be over.
(Oh yes. This may sound totally random, but: I like trees. I really really like trees. Yeap. Realised that only today. So weird huh?)
Anyway, anyway, anyway. I really can't wait to meet
Sam tomorrow. & for church. I've been feeling all friendless this
week. I haven't been talking to anyone much, like the people I talk to
most: Debs, Ks. Like proper talk. Ah, but I'll get used to this. It's
only the beginning. No one to sayang me anymore. Damnit! (Maybe Ash
still does quite a bit.) Yeah. Seriously seriously, I do feel a lot
more lonely now, like I said, friendless. Haha. I'm admitting it! Not
just with them though. In school too. As much as I say it's been fine,
it isn't really that. I kinda find it hard to connect with Sophia,
actually talk to her anymore. The only people in class I can really
talk to, about now, would just be Bev & Bel. The double Bs. I actually feel
like a loser when I'm in school. But it's okay. I'll be fine, I'll be
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| Honestly, I'm still feeling the after effects of Impact Youth. It's been a whole month now. And I was just thinking about something Zhangbei was talking to us about, a while back. All of us has 10 parts of energy. All this while, when Impact Youth was still running, we used maybe 5 parts on ourselves, the rest we put into ministry. Now that ministry is no more, it's like 10 parts of energy back on ourselves again. & we don't know how or where to use the other 5 parts of energy. It's kinda like going through cold turkey, kicking a habit. And the next few months would really be recuperation time for us. Just before, we kick start our engines again.
I was talking to Debs last week. & in the last few years, we've gone through so so many changes, that now, we hate it. Like, practically every year, we had to face some sort of change/s. Yeah. And this also explains why some are taking it easier than others. But really, we made this choice of moving out. We could be going though something way worse right now. Getting out of cosy into something that's gonna be even cosier? That's what we're in for now. Something better, better, better. And I'm getting along with the people great. I think.
A lot of times the past month, I just feel myself drifting away. Needa tune back into frequency. And stay on acceleration. Accelerate, accelerate, accelerate. Can't wait for these few months to be over.
>Am I the only one feeling this?
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| Yang just left. And the whole time he was here, I was feeling all _______, GAH. I wasn't really in the mood to do anything. Not that he's horrible or anything. And I can't say anything about that. I can't tell why.
Right now, I'm feeling really tired, stressed out, confused. Needa stop & catch a breather. I'm just not feeling very okay now. I feel like calling someone now. Calling someone and just babble, do the things I do best: Break silences, mumble, sing to the person. Sleep should do me some good. Or taking a dip in the pool. Need to relax. Heart to heart with God! That should do the trick. I should feel a whole lot better then. Yeah. Joy Wee ah.
I just really can't wait for the weekend now. I'm gonna meet Sam to study. Yes. I know. Studying again so soon? Not quite really. Just maybe a little. Oh, & next week, Sam, Van & I are gonna do "Brownie Experiment"! Christmas is too far long to wait for. I miss everyone, even though we're together now. Somehow, I feel so far away from all of them. QT!
>All I need is You..
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| (P.S. That was Weiyang. He's an idiot idiot idiot idiot!  )
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| I have nothing to blog about.
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