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| so, completely new entry, hmmm, we, the family and some other people, went to bible camp in mena this week, left monday, and learned a lot about a church member and friend on the way there. camp was weird, usually I can leave all my problems at home, but this year I brought my newly found cynical and alienated attitude, I don't know what's the matter with me, the people were great, the messages were great, everything was great, but it seems I couldn't let myself enjoy it like I wanted to. I don't remember how or when I started thinking and acting like this, but I hate it, I also seemed to have caught about a hundred maladies at camp, like bugbites and some sort of itchy reaction to some random plant, not to mention the sore and itchy throat, hoarseness, and coughing, our team so won this year in capture the flag, small wonder though, we had eli and two people going into the military, things have changed so much, I believe I am too nostalgic, I dwell on the past too much and compare it to now, saying today is worse, I think I am bi-polar maybe not, probably not, but maybe, oh well, I am going to stop this so I won't get any more depressed | | |
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School is out!!!
and the first week of break is almost over, yay, camp next week, that should be fun
now that I have nothing to do I'm gonna practice some music, a lot, get a better sound outta my trumpet, learn some new chords on guitar, get faster piano fingers, maybe I will even try to teach my self the flute, again, so excited about summer, and I think I'm finally going to get my permit soon, and then my license, won't have to wait forever, yay!
plus there's summer reading, shouldn't be too hard, so much unscheduled fun!---
bye all, leave comments, or not, whatever-- | | |
| spring break is finally here, just 41 days of school left, yay, that's over 8 weeks though : (
spring break, time of long days with not much happening, that's how it is on this end, plus I actually dream on breaks, not so during school, maybe it's the weird media that I encounter during breaks that triggers these dreams, like the martian chronicles, by ray bradbury, whew, heavy stuff man, he didn't just write f451, and I've seent he first three episodes of lost, and I think I like it, haha, not to mention other stupid things that don't require(sp?) any thinking,
SUMMER IS HERE!!!
lawnmowing season anyway, but to me, that certain smell signifies the beginning of summer, I have long summers, march-november, haha, I'm just kidding, but not really, haha, so funny, don't ya' just love those easily recognizable songs because of their unmistakeable guitar intros, yeah, me too, haha, it is fun to learn such intros, and full songs for that matter, my father would not approve, haha, I'm just kidding, but not really, but seriously, I'm just kidding, hahahalarious, the kittens are almost two weeks old, wow, time goes by so slowly, yesterday was the best, haha, me and my sister went downtown to scout out the old state house for a field trip for her class, and then we went to iriana's, good pizza, haha, bye all!
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| hello everybody!
life is good, and short, man, I feel so old?
I am weird,
never judge a book by its REVIEWS!
you think you know about somebody, dude, some stuff is messed up, check out my music video at the bottom of my page, if it doesn't work, please tell me, I want it to work cuz it is so cool, yesyes, I'm so excited for piano lessons, yay, I'm gonna get back into that again, I've got to admit it's getting better!
I can't wait for more track meets!!!! they were so much fun last year, I did so many things wrong last year, and this one, and today, and I will tommorow, and am right now, hindsight never helped anybody, I mean really, who's gonna be improved by looking at butts? haha, people are just SO wrong sometimes, it makes me mad, good people are bad people, bad people aren't so bad, good and bad are simply points of view, right? WRONG! but the perception of them can be greatly influenced, aag, just that people are so wrong sometimes, YAY!! | | |
| Why can't we come with instruction manuals? It would be so much easier if I had some idea of what I am supposed to do with my life.
well, I thought I had a good idea of what I wanted to do with my life, and after listening to some of my mentors, I am so confused, now I don't know what I want to do, I don't want to end up selling my time away for a paycheck, and then again I don't want to end up keeping it all, and giving it away to what I should do and what I want to do, and dying, bankrupt and abandoned at 30, that's a little extreme, I know, but I am just so worried, I can't help it, I think too much, it is kinda pointless to worry about it to, hey, God's worrying about it too, or should I say solving it, so the real fear is where God is going to put me, and the fact that I have no clue where that is, but where He leads, I will follow, and that path ends at the foot of His throne, YAY!
friday: today was friday, St. Patrick's Day, and I forgot, haha, stupid me, and I hate being touched by anyone, unless I am hugging a friend, my throwing is getting much better, hoorah, coach showed us some new side step variations that work a lot better than the back step we were using, and I wasn't even wearing my lucky throwing shoes, haha, that reminds me, "we like to run around in circles, play in sand boxes, and lob heavy objects, I'm so excited for track, yay! I am so excited for next year, but also a little sad, friends are leaving, whether it be graduation or something else, certain programs are going to become less important in the eyes of the school, aagg, but on the bright side, there will be so much improvement, I have so much room for improvement, and I see that as a good thing, right now, I mean, it's only gonna get better, right, first F horn next year, woohoo!, that's not saying much, and my mom suggested that I start taking piano lessons again, like mary did in mornings, and I gotta get a real job at 16, no more lawnboy : ( that's kinda a mixed blessing, and classes will be harder, If only theology was a little deeper, the Bible does say more than just "love your neighbor" and "Jesus loves you; have a cookie" and other, simple "warm fuzzies", we need some "cold pricklies", their God is too safe, I'm so excited, and afraid, uncertainty has always been man's biggest fear, isn't it great to have an Omniscient and Omnipotent God?!!!!
Saturday: wow, super long day, so little brother woke me up playing my video games, and asked me where Daisy (the cat) was, so I opened the closet where I had put her the night before, and he picked her up, and there was a lot of high pitched noises when he did, you guessed it, she had kittens, five of them, so, if anybody wants a kitten in a couple of weeks, just say so, we can't take care of five cats, and lawnmowing season has started, I think it comes earlier every year, started during Spring break last year, and it's still winter this tear, but this is arkansas, so--, oh well, and then my sister and I went to see the most stupid movie EVER!! I'm ashamed to even say what it was, but you can probably guess, I feel much dumber now, aag, then i went to the phantom of the opera party, yay, mucho divertido, and while I was there alex, called, how ironic(??) that was a fun party, consisted of many funny picture poses,(hahaha) pool, some other games, and of course phantom of the opera! yay, pool is fun, and later that night I was told my family ran into the tobins, man, so many memories, so many memories, wow, that was a really long day
Sunday: not much has happened so far, just the usual, kittens are so cute, even though they look like rats, they won't in a couple weeks, anybody want a kitten??
edit:this week is boring and slow, I wasnt spring break to be here already!! | | |
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