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Monday, December 17, 2007

Lost Nation Road
`private prelude by jude`
(must have been a bad dream
on September eleven,
I turned on my t.v.
I watched thousands
of souls
go to heaven...
they flew past the blackhills and the badlands,
past the smokestacks and concrete canyons...
past the billboards and ads for poison,
past the children in the backyards
who play with army toys
just like their daddies did... )

Must have been a bad turn back on I-980,
my mind was wandering
and the roads to Washington and Hollywood
looked the same to me...
I watched the country fly by
lost nation road,
right out the window,
I saw the spirit of a buffalo,
and her herd lay low...
on Lost Nation Road,
say can you see the blinking sign of hope
on Lost Nation Road?
the company and the cavalry and the billboard:
"be all that you can be" it screams
and fills your head with dreams
you can kill for...
go to college,
learn the lecture on the bayonette
and the times you may be called upon to use it
in the private sector...
there's paint in the sand
of the blood in the gravel
x-ed skies and violent tones...
when you're addicted to the road you travel,
it's hard to keep up with your jones...
on Lost Nation Road
say can you see the blinking sign of hope,
on Lost Nation Road?
the locomotive of the modern man
bringing in his rumbling sounds
he lay his horsepower down,
he wound the earth with his rusted wheels
he made his shady deals
on sacred burial ground...
I want to know,
where were the united sanctions to tell
Chistopher Columbus
to leave the Americas alone?
on Lost Nation Road,
say you can see the blinking sign of hope,
on lost nation road!
decency up and died on this stretch of highway,
assorted history has left a trail
of human road kill
and misery...
past the blackhills and the badlands,
past the smokestacks
and concrete canyons...
Fort Knox Kentucky and the boullion...
something's giving me a rotten bad feeling
that leaves me loathe to see the dawn
haunted eyes and my headlights reeling,
I've got no choice, I got to roll along
on lost nation road,
say can you see the blinking sign of hope?...
say can you see the blinking sign of hope...
say you can see the blinking
sign of
hope!

just toast 2001
jude karen and justin toast

my floor plans are changed...

all of a sudden there are doors

everywhere

all of them windowed wide

OPEN

wind and breeze/alive

like music

this way I smell the sweet rain on the grass

at summer midnight

and turning around

a spotlight of solstice warms my breast

I turn a full circle

seeing each fair way

viable viaducts/passage

into the field for the one who walks through.

But which one for me?

I came for company...

steps towards you

cadent with my imprint

you

all are here!

the 'other' side/the wild bleu

Walk through

walk through

sans plans per perfect path

on the floor/then out of the door of

EVERMORE!

`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~``` `` `

across the gateway of my heart, I wrote

"no thoroughfare!"

but love came laughing by and cried:

"I enter everywhere!"

author unknown

sisters in the band

all beautiful and

loving each other

makes so much

loveliness that

people

can't take

their eyes off

them

watching them move

they are no sirens

more like angels

or sisters of mercy

they harmonize

with bodies as well as

voices

with instuments as well as light

souls I want to dance

to stretch

to undulate

unendingly

to writhe and sweat

laughing and crying out

finally falling

exhausted

healed

at their annointed feet

only to rise and exalt again.

sisters in the band

all glorious

and shining each other

shows so much

light

that the men

all make

their tunes so sweet see them all

play

together, they sing

eternal songs

for the joy of being

~ ahanna

OUT OF THE BLUE/AND HOME TO YOU

Home to You [part two] 10/11/00

Now just waking

deep sleep slipping

slow reptile eyelids

open

bare

aware

of bodytime to move

blue blood beating

through my heart

holding this morning's

memory as a mantra

sliding from

really being

in dreamtime

unity

still:

with you into the future

into the light

I stormride

beyond the doors

of this little house of cards

on lost diviNation Road

rain pours

hardly hiding

the jagged

opening

oppressive

ozone

undone sun.

thirst for all

but that fallen water

soul drinking

I feel the swell

of divine love

I am full firebird

thunder wings

clapping

illumined lightning

in the whirlwind

fear and disbelief

deafening

tightening

my vision

for an instant only

I reel

then breathe

ahhhh wait

this is no hard march

it is a Soft Parade

Home to You

I celebrate

I breathe again

is it some sweet trick?

no, I know it's true

all of a sudden

the sky turned blue!

2/6/2002

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Home to You (part one/ june 30, 1998) to and with You/ I move finding and freeing the others/myself I love You with all of me... us, them, You so sweetly. Everyone of us too / like heaven... that blessed gift of a future someday past blue skied afternoon! hearing Your light `~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~ __________________________________________________________________________

Human Nature

some say it's human nature

to have a favorite...

to want to savor it.

comes the dance called

"domineer it"

no more space for holy Spirit

if it's true

to say "I do"

is really desperate:

two time pirates

with 24 karats ...

... still, some of you

don't want to hear it...

"How to get rich

in search for "the One"?

~each daughter!

~each son!

with your divine nature

just foreswear it!

for all of Mother Earth,

the meek can inherit ...

and we who seek to

will repair it ...

those who walk with grace

will merit.

Have ears to hear;

the meek inherit it.

reprise

some say it's human nature

to have a favorite,

to want to savor it.

comes the dance called

"domineer it"

no more space

for holy Spirit

if it's true,

to say

"we're through with you

(or you or you or you)

is why we're blue."

what will we do?

what

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dance... follow through

sunstreams of consciosness

allowing somewhere to occur perfectly

/alone with one

and everyone\

to the moon face!

crystalline pyr^mids slowly cascading

to the ground

around our feet and into our

hearts

No more cupid arrows

to still our chanting lips

a part

of you and her and him

and the Whole

All at once

small birds singing of God's domain

a hymn for Her!

__________________________________________________________________________

shaman flames burn away

agendas unwanted never stay

chakras sealed with

goddess kiss

those who should not be here!

beware

my protection /\/\

deities

storms

icy cold

hell hot dry

landscapes of lonliness

plant and animal allies

magical creatures `~`~`

rain forests

tundra

I plant a seed in that part of me I know will be safe

my heart .

the seed is covered with silver and then over that ~

gold

srpouting then growing so quickly

profusely

lavishly

a rose tree with thorns long and plenty

retracting and disappearing as love

draws near.

blooms

dark purple indigo black

with smaller more fragile white blossoms

surrounding.

I smell the strong sweetness

the Bear

the Raven

the Turtle

in shell

a waterfall

fairies

the Goddess~Mother

the Sun

surround my heart

I say out LOUD / I have the unalienable right to be

alive!

seeing my tree with roses of every hue

I AM!

safe and protected and healed and one with my Love

~ the prayer of a solitary shameness ~

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recreation rewritten 2/7/02=11

Star crossed [xxx]

but not lost

our attraction.

At what cost is all the equal

and opposite law of reaction?

Our sun begins to

melt the ice...

'We'; feels so nice

I'll pay any price

We find time

when there is no time left

We recreate space

where none is right.

The face of Fate

Shines Light

when you are near

and that's forever

can you Hear?

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~ cor ad cor loqitur ~

~ amor gignet amorem ~

Big Brother Tries to Hold Me From the Skies

read my lips
i am not afraid
for I speak the truth
"heel" you say
I hear "heal"
I listen more than
you expected from the inside out
I'm protected
by trying to be
touching you
perhaps you'll see
the Light
that love's about
turn around
know it's true
Now!
have no doubt
[or smiling on cue
full of sacred spice
you'll be put into a stew with rue!]
be alert
and read my heart
for I speak
in love
with grace
from above
"Leave my people alone!"
or I may crush your cranial bone
wih a step in this healing dance
to be fair
we shall leave it to chance
but beware
and remember
love conquers all
big brother...
surrender
or fall.