First of all, i want to thank every one who left me props<3 i love your girls

Okay so the past few days ive been doing okay. i did manage to loose some weitht so far, either from the pills or the dieting but idc i just feel good cuz i lost some. I weigh about 110- 112 not my best but not my worst either. I just spent like 200$ in new clothes, i had to stop kidding my self into fitting in last years size 0 & 1 it made me look like a had HUGE love handels, so i broke down and went with the size 3 =( but it will change. Ive been eating special k 1 or 2 times a day crystal light & lots of water, its really hard because im crazing cake n icecream and just good food in general, i ALMOAST got taco bell last night im so happy i just kept driving. Im not ready to fast yet but atleast ive given up junk food soda and 3 meals a day. i think im doing good SO FAR,

Other than that, My 18th b-day was may 8th & i got a tattoo =) its a small heart by my pelvic bome i love it.

Keep Strong every 1, and keep those comments coming so i can stay strong too!

LOVE YOU ALL

Lyss*Xox0*

Wow, ok so i havent been on this site in soo long. Basically, people were catching onto my eating disorder and i felt really good at the time and felt as if i didnt need ana anymore to help me. So i started to eat a little more, i got my period back, i got boobs! haha and 2 years later, i got 15 lbs on my FAT ASS! yeah, so everyday my image is on my mind, i cant even fit in size 1 anymore, im a 3 now. I had to buy all new" fat" clothes. And summer is so close, ive sworne myself into NOT buying a bathing suit, NOPE this is my punishment for being so careless with food. So in all, im back. Im starting off basic, i have special K in the morning and for kunch and a salad for dinner, eventually i'll cut 1 meal every so often untill i can handle my day long fasts of nothing but water. I've just started this diet pill, Ultra 90 and so far a have no results but its a 90 day program so im just going to have to wait 2 more months to see if it really works. No more soda, water and crystal light ONLY. This is so hard for me i think about food all day and how i wish i can eat everythign i want and NOT gain 1 pound, i cry alott when i look in the mirror, and ive been beating myself up f or letting go of ana. I dont want to be skin and bones i just want to be pretty and have awsome abs and fot in my size 1 again, so ladies PLEASE help me stay strong BELIEVE me im going to need and and i need allll the tips and Thinspo u can give me. I dont want my family or boyfriend to catch on wither, this is doubble hard this time around =\, thanks girls HELP ME STAY STRONG!

                        Lyss*Xox0*

Ok ladies im backkkk! Ok so ive been going crazy with my weight. Every time i look in the mirror i PROMISE im not gunna eat.. but that never happens. Today I went to try on sum pants for fall//winter n i  could barly fit my FAT ASS into a 0 like i use to! Im a 1 which isnt bad.. BUT ITS NOT PERFECT EITHER! Soo! I bought the 0! and im gunna fit into them by the end on October GAURENTEED! Im starting all over basically. I weigh 97lbs and back in the beg. of the yr. i was about 105 n droped to 89 then i was at 93 for the longest time then in August i went on the biggest Bindge and here i am today. I normally weigh 96 but i have my UGHH! period!!!!! Blaaaa BUT im looking on the bright side! Once im ana agin i wont have 1 so it dont matter, this is a farwell goodbye! lolz! Ya so its gunna b hard for the first week or so.. SO PLEASE GIRLS! you know whats its like and how comments n support totally help you push yourself! SO PLEASE help me push myself n give me lots of comments!!!!! But im not even gunna temp you n let u kno what i ate so far today but i will tell u im not eating dinner! LOTS OF LOVE TO EVERY ONE AND STAY STRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Alyssa*Xox0*

** if you havent read my entrys b4.. i usually have good thinspo n tips EVERYDAY! so come back! once i get things togeather ill post thinspo n good tips n websites to help you! **

Ughh girls! I WEIGH 96 LBS!!!! this SUX! b4 i left for vacation like a month ago i weighed 92 lbs! And about 2 weeks b4 that i was at 89!!!!!!!! I SUCK! I stopped working out n now my abs are NOT FLAT and they SUCK TOO! I HATE MYSELF FOR ALL THIS SHIT! I dont know what happened! For the lo0ongest time i was so0o committed to this! I lost my period and was ana and now i got it back so really im not ana, ur only ana if u lost ur period is what ive been told? But ne ways back to my pathetic body! I gained back alot of what i STARVED MYSELF to loose! WTF! I SUCK SO BAD! I SUPER SUCK X100 I started at 105 n was past my goal of 90 and i fucked it all up for FOOD! I HATE FOOD! (and i hate you if ur sitting there like, omg ur 96 lbs n ur super skinny and to all the HATERS who r like OMG stop starving urself u dont have to b thin to b pretty CAN KISS MY ASS!) ughh! srry girl i am so0o0 very stressed out! Ive helped so0o many girls become ana and loose so much weight! I WAS THE LEADER of that and now im LOST and im in the back of the line, well i feel that way. SOME ONE PLEASE REMIND ME WHY I WANT TO B THIN! Someone HELP ME get back to 89lbs! Ughh! I was always fasting and makeing up fun lil  diet plans and now I SAY im gunna fast and then OPPS i EAT FOOD! ughhhhhhhh! Ne ways i woke up this morning and realized ive been saying im gunna do this n that so i did! ALL I ATE WAS LUNCH  and a chicken wing cuz my mom MADE me, BITCH! Idk juss sum 1 answer my Question... y do i want to b thin!!!

Alyssa *Xox0* a.k.a FAT ASS SUCKY LOSER!

B- NOTHING

L- Bologna Sand. - 179 cals, eww (used low carb.cal bread 45cals a slice)

D- Chicken Wing - 81

Drink- Water! Crystal light-  5

Total: 264

.. better than the usual 1,000! blaaa