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i keep going to your site
viewing your friendster in secret
and reading your text messages
as if that would change everything .
i'm failing both my sciences . i just hope it won't turn out as i expected it to be , else i would have to graduate into the NA class or stay in sec 3 . don't wana think about that , tomorrow is the last ! :D
went to school with bud today , you should have seen his wound ! so scary .
nad: ouchhh ! ouchhh ! (looking at wound)
bud: asal ouch ouch ?
nad: geli .
bud: lol abeh ouch ?
nad: dengan pedih la ! haha salah expression !
went home with a mcflurry in my hand . nothing like letting the cool ice-cream melting in your mouth , eh ? ate dendeng with rice like sushi ^^\/ so delicious especially the burnt parts ! burnt parts are nice kan yan ? haha . they're going to piyyahut and also catch a movie . should i go piyyahut ? i'm so fat already like big momma seh but i'm craving for chicken soup ! eleh , tau gemuk masih nak ingat makan je . keje tak mo ! tsktsktsk !
i found a friend to talk to , heh . it's nice but i miss hbk much . yan singing is nice over the phone and aaron always knows whether i'm smiling or not . my psychic friend , haha . of course , i'm still waiting for my mobile to display a particular soul's name . as if that's ever going to happen D: he want talk to me , but you don't want ? sad okay . actually i'm perfectly fine . it's not wrong to dream right ?
i don't think you meant the last word you texted last night . | | |
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ring me back .
helo , i am in a daze cause i'm just so amazed .
okay seriously my head is spinning , i don't know what to think . there are just a lot of surprises that has been happening lately to me . i'm not complaining , i feel grateful indeed . i guess my soul is just too surprised . it's like too good to be true but i don't have had enough .
you guess it right if something happened again . i don't care if it meant nothing to him , but it does to me . i'm starting to believe that this isn't just coincidence . it's not it's not it's not . he just keeps coming back .
i don't know what i should feel but i'm mostly happy . i'm just wishing he had said it different . i don't care if it's his friend or anything . sighs , he's not missing me and i was expected to call , not the other way round . my life is pathetic but it's okay , i'm willing to give in ! (nad and pure learn to care)
okay the funniest thing about the miracle was , i talked to saniy -.- HAHAHA . it's unexpected ! like omg ? the guy my friend wrote a love letter to using my name ? sighs , surprises in surprises . thank God that i got to cover a secret before it spills . it just slipped out off my mouth . phew phew phew ! i just got away with it , thank You Allah ! hahaha .
i hate my mind . it has been reminding me of the cwo but i guess i would go . if i be honest , maybe God will bless me :D hahaha , macam-macam . so tuesday . obviously no chinaman but i love God . He let me see kah kien early in the morning , muahaha . only that i'm hoping he didn't think anything else cause i was with nick and dan -.- nick cute leh ! i like him as a junior only ah ! don't misconfused like ah ma crystal ! blahblah , history is a mess . i just studied this morning . hope for korea or japan , gone !
ate long john again and i swear i'm adding flesh to myself D: how come my friends i know are mostly mat and minah ? but they do give me special memories . so many zh just now , i nearly died . i guess God extended my life with the miracle , hehe ! okaylah , i'd better get wash . i'm going to a trip to NUH ! miss that place loads . let's just hope he doesn't read my xanga anymore so you guys could read and judge my life like i care . sayonara ! (smooches)
she's wondering
what is love all about
she's hoping
that things may work out . | | |
| yeah baby , e math is over :D ! three more papers to go and then i can shake my ass and run loose ! don't think about the things that are done no matter how screwed it is . be optimist ! as the days go by , we'll be nearer to our not-so-soon-yet holidays and also pon school without as much worries for the extra three weeks . okay on the other hand , my brain keeps reminding about the cwo , boo ! stop reminding me D: talking about pon , i saw sadeeq the other day . is he still in unity ? thinking that i don't see him going to the toilet answers me .
history tomorrow and i have not fart myself way through -_- went to mac and indulged the eversoyummy hotcakes ! i bought the Happy Meal one and i'm kinda missing going to mac before goldwing . i miss the time where alvin ho would meddle around with the toys i got or having him laugh at my meal . i miss where he would somehow get concerned over me eating the supersweet honey . now that he's a to-be-someone's (high chance alert) , i don't really care about him . i care more about the frigging everlast watch he was wearing today because if aries hadn't got one , it would have been mine ! rahhhh ! skip skip . i laughed a lot just now , hahahaha . i found almost everything super funny so i lolled the whole time . they were only laughing cause i'm high enough . long time k nad never been so high :D i wonder what has got into me . i've lost my screw but please , don't bother to find it . let me be this way ! went home and lolled again with zaf . wah this time i didn't see him even when i'm with her . so zaf , you ain't my lucky charm ! but today no mood to see him ah cause i look retarded . k MEREPEKS .
i wana go group study with them but there's a guest anddd i don't think any miracle will happen (being allowed) . only when i'm super fret shit will there be miracles . k lame , my own personal thang . oh yeah , my guest knows about all this jin stuff and he's scarying me out . private and confidential (first ta-ime seh) !
i miss sj and i wana see romeo ! i miss mard's craziness over the song 'mercy' . i've been listening to celine dion's and britney's old songs . quite surprised mum has them , heh . she asked why the heck was i listening to the songs all of a sudden and teased me about him . kwangkwangkwang . i don't know that you'll laugh when people geletek your nehneh . cause my aunt said this to me , " you tickle my tetek " -.- sighs , don't ask me why i'm so lame these days . i want ek-ek .
i've tried , so it's up to you now . | | |
| I should let it out, it's time to let you go .
i tuned in to channel 8 around midnight and am surprised to find myself watching a show i watched once before and at the same particular part where i switched to last time . i've been experiencing that quite a lot and i doubt it's mere coincidence . certainly there's a certain message God is trying to give me or maybe just learn something about inside the show until i get it stuck within my head . the funny thing is the most number of times that happened to me of a show was 'The Lord of The Rings' =.= HAHA , but i like it . i watched it for four times or more . 'Harry Potter and The Sorcerers Stone' too . anyhow , the chinese show , 'Why Me , Sweetie ?!' was nice . ahhh love story , haha .
okay woke up and obviously i didn't get my ass to the shower . i did however , brushed my teeth . with my disgusting face and sweaty smell , i served the guests who came too early for a lazy bom like me . k doesn't make sense . i don't remember my former block neighbour except the mum i guess , but i really enjoy their presence . it's just the bond that i seem to be proud of , heh . then my relatives came , and guess what . my aunt (distant aunt i think) asked me to help her son take off his pants and underwear since he wanted to pee (gasp) . i just let him helped himself and see whether he needed my help , and thankfully he could . i got my glance off lah when he take off his underwear lah -.- sighssss , how am i going to be a mum ? lol , then when he came out , he didn't know which side is to put his legs through . kwang , luckily he just ran off to his mum refusing my help . PHEWWW !
kinda embarassed at my state and the house's . i mean , look at meee . i'm a stinky winky dee and the house is in a mess . the middle room needs a lil arrangement . the house needs some sweeping . my house lack of kueh raye , maybe i'll make some . the fish water needs to be changed . my table needs a clean up . the kitchen seriously needs that too . arghhhhhhhhh . oh damn , the bed . so many things , so lil time . e math paper two tomorrow D:
have you ever look at your own shadow wishing someone else's was right beside ? on the other hand , that can wait . oh yeah , i dreamnt of a guy beside me . we were sitting , or was it lying down ? it seems like both and i know that's impossible . we're in class i think and my body was leaning against his chest . he's cute . i've seen him before , but only where ? he looks very malay but also like the actor in Kyle Xy (i just finised reading the book) . he wrote 'saya sayang nadhirah' on my fulscap cover and i took my pencil and i wrote 'saya sayang ..' i told him i won't want to put his name , teasingly . so i wrote 'lien jie' . suddenly we were too close and his body started squirming , like it's wrong . the thing is he felt like he was my good/close friend's boyfriend . then .. KC CHAN APPEARED and i was going to ask him something when my mum woke me up . SIGHS , weird dreams lately ! maybe my boyfriend in near future , HAHA . whatever , Kyle Xy at 5 pm today ! MUAHAHA . | | |
| :Di'm starting to smile again eversince you came back into sight . HAHA . i just got to carry (indirectly i got to hug too) a super cuuute toddler named Haziq ! he's just a year old which is a no wonder why i never seen him . heeeee ! so cute so cute so cute ! sometimes it's good to be the older one . when you grow and the lil one grows too , you know at least you hugged him once upon a time before , muahaha ! weeheehee ! his brother's cute too , Ayip is his name ! i don't usually go gugugaga over babies or toddlers unless they're guys and are well-behaved . fret not , some girls would be lucky if i do entertain them . well it's saturday , yay ! i woke up and bathed , just in time for the telly . watched 'Trading Spouses' . i really like the rocker family , being all stereotyped . despite being rocker parents , their daughter is quite feminine and polite . she's shy , she's sweet , she's disciplined and she's even in ballet . how cool is that ! she's so pretty , i nearly wished i was her . it's like it doesn't matter if she home school and has few friends . i wouldn't have to think about pretending , bitching and drooling over boys (much) . her dad's super cool and funny . probably the first (real) dad i admired , cause all the movies are not real , duh . who doesn't want a dad who's like him ? he's funny ! yeahyeah , what does it really feel like to trade life ? after that watched my cartoon shows . can you believe that i still watch 'The Winx Club' ? i was watching that once when some cuties knocked on my door . i was insanely paiseh , ahaha . psst , i play dress up games once in a while too ! :x since there wasn't anymore nice shows , me and ami went to dan's house to get ourselves entertained by watching 'The Lost Kingdom' , i think ? who cares about the title , it's nice and there's Jackie Chan ! i love love love him okaye . old but cute , HAHA . it's uniqueee and all the kungfu moves just never fails to turn me on . lol , wrong term . it makes me sexcited . i always feel the thrills and all , with my goosebumps raising , heh . shortly after that , we went to NKF hospital near ang mo kio . it was funny when the lift opened when we wanted it and that uncle was inside . whoaaa , magical . ahaha ! the place is cool , but kinda quiet . had fun by burning our fats on some workout machine :D ! ami and her parents went to ikea . i wanted to follow but nenek wanted me to take care of her D: boohoo . so yeah went home feeling all sick . i hate the smell of taxis / cars or specifically leathers . the cigarettes or perfumes in the air-conditioned gas chokes me too . in the evening , kak nazrin and family came . i like it when they come cause there are faiz , faizah and farisha :D faiz cute , must i repeat ? he's in rugby anyway :b the three siblings super active so i'm not at all shy to be around them . we always talk about ghosts and cats . they have my interests at heart and i have theirs at hear too . lol i showed them my barbie dolls anyway and who the hell knew that faiz is super hornaye ?! hahahaha ! in front of the dad he could still laughed at the barbie dolls thingy -.- and faizah showed off that one of my dolls has no boobies . ahahahaha ! paiseh sia when they did that . i still remember that faiz cried at langkawi when i didn't sleep with nenek and him downstairs , awww . right after they went home , another relatives came . nenek sakyah (?) something with the daughters / sons (in-laws) and grandchildren as always . super big group but this time , there were two cute boys that i noticed . i mentioned them earlier when i started the post . cute lehhhhh i loike . i managed to take Haziq's picture , MUAHAHA . sighsss , i love hari raya a lot lot ! it's like once in a while your relatives come . it doesn't matter how you're connected , you're just connected ! of course there are some who aren't real but they are real in a way . it's nice to know when your family are linked in a way like nenek and nek ru . chinese converts you see . i feel special (: it is sad not to go to their house much . i barely go to their houses on raya . ok most of the time . i only did when i was young . how sad , but it's fine when they still come to visit (my nenek) and share stories , laughters and concerns . ohh the happiness ! kinda suck though when i can't show off snowball . i miss you . okay i heard some rocket sound . obviously dan and shai are outside playing their fireworks like some budak kampung . kesian . they've been deprived of kampung life . lol lame . i like my life now . just hanging out with different people . it feels much more comfortable that way . i got to learn that it doesn't mean you are always sharing your secrets with the close ones . i've been sharing a lot of secrets with the ones i'm not close to but i just do trust them . seriously , i love you all :D maybe i socialized less last time that made me super down . i hope i'll be hanging out more . sometimes people get crazy and affected by some hidden things . we decide to change . we decide to be something in particular like wanting to be an anti-social . but in the end , we will just realised we were missing something . we will recover . oh well , mum's good about him . i told her , duh . she's been asking a lot about him . i'm just merely telling her what's going on in my life that seems major . really , there's nothing going on which is sad . ahahaha , but who cares ? he just fit himself into the puzzle of my heart (: i know i rant lame things sometimes but these lame things are the one that make me happy . sad things make me pleased with myself to be able to express my emotions but well , i'm good being happy now although i can't help express it much . ok i don't know what i'm saying -.- you're magical . | | |
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hi, i'm nadhirah. i grew up with all the things that i could ever own, all the care and love i could ever earned and all the admiration i could ever be given. but let me tell you this, just one mistake, one sin, one tragedy can change one's happiness.
for whatever i say, it may not be true. i'm just a mortal and i assume as much as you.
programme guide spore
WANT
fly to Japan/Korea/Thai!
1A 4B 2C
flipflops
watch
horseriding
lose 2kg
korean/jap drama/movie cd every week
him
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