I need to fly...

Sometimes I feel like there's this unknown force that is keeping me from being contented with my life. Whenever something of worth comes along; something that has a possibility of making me happy, it swoops right in and steals it away, replacing it with something else, leaving me with guilt and regret because I thought that I'd finally be happy. Problems everywhere. Family, love, finances, study. I just wish I could just stop time for a little while to absorb everything in and find a way to make it all better.

If only it was that easy.

But that's life right? You get hurt. You make mistakes. You go through hard times. You sacrifice.

But you learn. You face your fears. In the end, when it's all over, when you survived through it all, you'll take a look at yourself and you'll be proud of what you've become.

I wish I could be proud of myself.

Someone set me free? :'(

Currently Listening: Blink 182 - Adam's Song

Photos~! X3

The bbq last night was cool :D It was the first time for me to try tequila.. haha I had like 3 shots. Then my mom stopped them from giving me more. (I wanted more though ;o; ) So I just drank vodka+cranberry juice and vodka+sprite. lol~ I didn't get tipsy though.. I wanted to at least get tipsy.. *sigh* Oh well. I laughed a lot~~ hehe The male to female ratio was waaaay off cuz there were a lot of gays :P It got pretty crazy with all the sex jokes. hahhaha

Also met some new people but I didn't catch their names or contacts @_@;;; hahahah.. There's gonna be another bbq next month (It's a monthly thing now) so I hope they'll be there too. Then we can all get to know each other more :)

Took some photos last Sunday evening with my sister and Shane, my dad's girlfriend. :D We walked around together while my dad was getting his hair cut~ Then we all had dinner in Triple O's. Whoa the burgers there are huge~! We just ordered two burgers and we each ate half. haha~~~











It's nice how everyone's so concered with me and my stalker. @~@; I haven't heard from him or seen him since he last called but if he does call or come by the shop again, I'll be sure to threaten him by saying that I'll report him to the police. If that doesn't work, I'll tell my mom and I'll ask if I can have like a month leave or something. If I don't go to work for a month, he might think I'm not working there anymore? Maybe he'll stop going there or calling? ;___;.....

Stalker ;___;

I'm HUNGRYYYYY....... It's past 4pm and I haven't eaten anythingggg.. Just drank a cup of coffee this morning on the way to work. I'm trying to save some room for dinner later. I'm going to a beach barbeque with my mom and some other people who work around where I work. :D I hope I don't feel too left out though. I need to learn how to socialize. I know I'll do fine if only they all talk in English. But I think they're all going to speak in Tagalog. lol I'm ok with them speaking in tagalog; I can understand most of what they're saying. It's just that when they speak to me in Tagalog, I feel like they expect me to reply in Tagalog, as well. Thing is, my Tagalog isn't that fluent yet and I still can't make complete sentences properly. hahaha. I know I can reply to them in English. They understand English fine. But it just feels weird when they speak to me in Tagalog and I reply to them in English... @___@;;; Oh well... I just have to cope.....

I've been trying to learn how to play the guitar recently. :D So far, so good. The guitar at home is kinda big, though, so playing certain chords are kinda difficult. @w@;; My hand is small... :P Moo.

Gah. I have this scary stalker... X____X; Long story short: He used to look at me through the shop window, one day he came in, asked my name. I said my name was Anna. I didn't want to tell my real name. But I should've said something else because Anna is so close to Antonette... --; Anyway, he took a stolen shot of me with his mobile phone before. X_X And he managed to get the shop's phone number. So he calls now.. X_X EE.. I told him I had a bf (JP's my pretend bf for that. haha) but he's still bugging me ;___; The first time he called he said, "If you told me that you didn' have a bf, I would've asked my father to get this girl so I can marry." WTF. What makes him think I want to marry him!? ;_____; help..... He called just a few minutes ago and was like "I miss you. I haven't seen you in a long time." XP EW. When he was putting down the phone he said he'll call again and I was like, "No. Can you please stop calling me?" I don't know if he'll listen. Can't he get the picture? Speaking of pictures, he wants my picture! .... ToT;; I don't know what to doooo......

Currently Listening: Papa Roach - Scars (Acoustic)

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I haven't blogged for so long that I've already forgotten how to blog @_@;; ahahaha

I went shopping with my sister the other day! X3 OMG I miss her so much! She's been reallllly busy lately with school, church and dance practices that I barely see her. She arrives home really late (around 11-ish) and once she gets home, she goes straight to bed. :( When I wake up in the morning for work, she's either already left for school (on weekdays) or still sleeping (on weekends).... So shopping with her the other day was really nice~~~ ♥

We walked around Central and Mong Kok to find an outfit for her to wear for her dance performance yesterday. I helped her pick out what to wear. I also got a new miniskirt and new bra+underwear sets for myself (and for her). The bra+underwear set is so cute omg~~~ Who can I show it to? HAHAHAH

We had a snack and drank some coffee in Pacific Coffee Company. It was nice talking and updating each other with what was happening in our lives heheh~~

My lovelife has cooled down recently, compared with late March to early May. Whoa, my lovelife was like a Korean Drama then! Too complicated to blog about. Let's just say that I loved the person who didn't love me and I didn't love the person who did love me... XD Plus some extra guys on the side.

I miss Teh Ecchis (Yuna, Aido, TJ) so much right now. (OMGIMISSYOUTOOOPAL!) We all haven't hung out for SOOOOO long. I can't even remember the last time we all hung out, just us four. At times like these, I wish I lived in Hung Hom... Or at least in Kowloon...... Let's all pray that my dad decides to move to Hung Hom ;o;... Everyone's so busy that it's hard to set up a day when we all are free. But Aido will resign from his job soon, TJ's week-long holiday is coming and Yuna's school holidays already started. So its up to me, basically. :D And I'm almost always free~ 8D

My dad's girlfriend is in Hong Kong. She arrived early May. It was really awkward around her, at first.... I mean... She's just a few years older than me @_@;;;; It's like me dating one of my friend's dads... Errr.. Anyway, we're starting to ease up with each other. She's just as shy as I am. haha. But now we're talking to each other more and we get along quite well. Probably because of our age range. haha. She could be the older sister I never had. Except that she's my dad's girlfriend. Actually, she's his fiancee now :D They're getting married in July~! I wonder if I'm going to get another step-sibling.. @_____@;;;; EEee.. Kinda weird thinking about that right now. hahah

Currently Listening: Justin Timberlake - Take It From Here

HAPPY NEW MONTH! I'm Back! :D

Whoaaa. How long has it been? 4 months?! :O! *LEGASP*... My last post was about problems at home. I'm glad to say I'm happier now. Why? I moved out of my mom's place and moved in with my dad :D My sister's with me too~ So yes, that is one of the reasons I've stopped blogging.. @~@;; The pc here at my dad's place is OOOOOOLLLLLLDDDD... AS IN sOOper!... Windows 98 and Windows 2000... Crashes a lot.. Can't use msn messenger and Firefox unless I'm on Windows 2000.... Eee...

But one good thing is that it has a LOT of music :D *soundTRIPS* moo! ♥

SO... In the past 4 months, loads of stuff happened... Good and Bad. :( Since there are a lot of things to mention, let me be TEH COOL and post them in point format. Nyahaha.

Good
- Moved in with dad.
- Love life is improving haha
- Tagalog is improving too~ YAY
- New haircut! :O I have bangs nowwww~!!!
- New friends!!! X3
- New clothing style (OwO)b
- Opal came to visit!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bad
- Stalkers!! @_@;;; EEEE scary ToT;
- Got my heart broken. Twice.. By the same guy >_> wtf....
- Broke someone's heart :(
- Yeast Infection down there :/ my first.... :( Ick..
- Got something taken away from me...
- SO outdated with Bleach ;o;
- Opal left again ;______;

I can't really remember everything o_O;; But I'll explain them if I remember as I start blogging again~~

I miss everyone ;o;!!! Not many people are blogging on Tabulas anymore, huh? It's nice to know that some people still remember me XD (♥ Maki, Fei, Thuy)

Mmm.. In April, Opal came to visit Hong Kong. (OMGIMISSYOUSOMUCH) The first day she was here, she called my phone. Once I heard her voice on the phone, I was like "OPALL!!!!!! OMGGGGG!!!!" hahaha even after a year of not hearing her voice, I can still remember it X3 I think we talked on the phone everyday when she was in Hong Kong.. We talked for at least 2 hours each day, which is why I think my mobile phone bill went up to $2700HKD... O_O;;;; lol....(It's temporarily cut right now because I haven't paid it omg haha. I have a new temporary number for those who want to contact me. Just message me or something)

TJ put up a video of us on youtube. lol CLICK.. I was looking at the picture that Opal took of us on her phone and he started recording us >_>;

Anyway.... HMMM... I don't really know what to blog about right now @~@; Just thought I'd say I'm back :D I'll start blogging more frequently now~ X3 I miss you guys!