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Dear Subs & Sisters,
Sorry! Im not really around these days.
I have alot going on in my life & my computer is uncompattable to run this site right now cause it restarts itself automatically cause of some virus like every 20 minutes, and all of us who make layouts know that an unexpected restart is no working condition to make layouts. I plan on getting a new computer and after I do I hope I can return and have time to make my site mind blowing again! Sorry for the disapointment.
I really miss all of you & making layouts & writing quotes.
Hopefully Ill return by the end of the summer.
Take care all.
-Ashley
Update TableApr. 12th, 2008Hi again all. How are yall?! I really miss yall. I hope yall dont totally hate me for taking the break. I will definitely be coming back for the summer, and when I do, Ill bring a few new stylesheets and a good 20-30 new layouts. Ill make some summer stuff for yall in a few weeks to go up in May. New Site Of The Week: Its KellyTaylor, from CRiMiNAL_CREATiONS. -Personal note: My appologies to HotelHaute. Mar. 23rd, 2008Sorry for being such a slacker. My personal life has been quite busy. I have decided that I am only going to be making weekly updates on the weekends. Ill add a few layouts here & there, but until I get my life in order, I will only be updating on weekends. During my weekly updates on the weekend I will add the new site of the week. Keep subbing & commenting & requesting! I will definitely get back to you. New Site Of The Week: Its Victoria, from Vogue_Publications. Mar. 12th, 2008I need 15 more subs before I can add the new layouts! Mar. 11th, 2008Sorry again for like not being around. Im still sick! But anyways, Im getting closer on sub count! KEEP SUBBING! New Site Of The Week: Its Gia, from disney_fan102. I know its a bit early, but I was so sick the other day, I didnt check Amber/Elizabeth's site and realise they are inactive now. Oh wells! Gia you get put up early. Mar. 8th, 2008Sorry this is late! Ive just been so sick. I havent even barely replied to my comments. New Site Of The Week: Its Amber/Elizabeth, from Pretty_Whispers. Mar. 1st, 2008Adding 2 new layouts to the Request/Contest section. Feb. 28th, 2008Hey yall! Sorry I havent been on much the past couple days, Im sick. Take care all. Keep commenting! <3 Feb. 26th, 2008Well no one has subbed and no one has really commented, so when will I be able to make my next update!? People come on.... New Site Of The Week: Its Vanessa, from DebutantQuoteLovex. Feb. 23rd, 2008New contest link at top of the post! Please vote? And join! Feb. 22nd, 2008In another contest! You should join. - ContestParadeFeb. 21st, 2008I got another review from HeyThere__UniversalReviews. Nice score! <3 Feb. 20th, 2008Maybe I should set a comment goal as well as a sub goal. Feb. 19th, 2008Comment people! =( New Site Of The Week: Its Stephanie, from Stepha16Nicole03. By the way, check my VIPs section on my page, if you are one of my VIPs. Feb. 18th, 2008New personal site! All of my sisters and VIPs are welcome to add it. I just have to know who you are to accept you as a friend, cause its on friendslock. Ive already added a few of you that I talk to more. Click Click ClickFeb. 17th, 2008Wheres my comments? Feb. 15th, 2008My sub count is doing great. Really happy about that. I made a layout as a request but it was personalized, and I wanted to add it to my request section but after I unpersonalized it, I kinda just redid it some, and this was the end result - Click Here -Tell me what you think? Feb. 14th, 2008Happy Valentine's Day!!! Feb. 13th, 2008Yay, Ive been accepted as one of the CandyxPerfumexGirls. I added a layout in the Contest/Request section. Feb. 12th, 2008I posted a new 10 quotes in my quotes section since its been forever since my last quote post. Their mostly lovey dovey. Hope you enjoy. =] Ive done 3 request this week! So keep requesting dolls. Feb. 11th, 2008I got another review from PandemoniumxReviews and I got a fabulous score of 100...so you should go get a review from her. New Site Of The Week: Its Jordan, from Elektronic. Feb. 10th, 2008I joined another contest at CookieCakeContests. Go to her site and check it out and apply for the contest so she can fill up the slots sooner! <3 Feb. 9th, 2008Ill try to update as much as possible and reply to comments when I get the chance. But if I disapear for a couple of days, Im sorry. My grandma is in the hospital. Feb. 7th, 2008I changed my layout back to the white version, Im going to change the pink and black around to maybe a couple new colors...but if I do decide to do that it'll probably be later. Feb. 5th, 2008Yay! 10 New Layouts up! All of Style 12 & Style 13 are new layouts & Number3 in Style 13 is Valentine's Dayish! New Site Of The Week: Its Kathie, from NewYorkCompany. Btw, I was late by a day, she was suppose to be put up yesterday. Im sorry! But the week wont be cut short, instead, Ill have to change the day I readd the site of the week! Feb. 4th, 2008Added another section on the page for my reviews to go it, & I also requested another review from Laura @ XxOHH_Soo_CuteXx...her layout is ADORABLE! Anyways...check her out. 146 subs now, so Im guessing about Wednesday or Thursday Ill reach 150, and I can add my 10 new layouts! <3 Feb. 3rd, 2008I decided for a while I will post 10 layouts every 50 sub count, so all I need is 8 more subs then yall get 10 new layouts. Feb. 1st, 2008Happy 1st everyone! <3 Sub count is going up & I reached 500 comments! Heylee, from Quotes_4_The_Bored being the 500th. =] Remember, even though layouts arent going up til next goal is met, request are open at all times! Jan. 30th, 2008I need 70 new subs before I make my next big update of 20 new layouts! <3 Jan. 28th, 2008-Edit: New Site Of The Week: Its Lissa, from CookieCakeLaysIm working on 2 new stylesheets to go up in the layouts as soon as I reach my goal, one of the style sheets is like the layout I currenly have up & Im still working on the other. Plus I am adding to some of the other stylesheets. And again, I just want to thank yall so much for voting me and getting me 1st place! <3 Jan. 26th, 2008I WON 1st Place! <3 Thankyou so much everyone. New stylesheet, let me know what you think, I might change it back, not sure. Jan. 25th, 2008I have a question for all my subbers and sisters...do you think my current page layout is confusing? Would you rather me change it? Next goal is to reach 200 subscribers, then I will add 10 new layouts, til then, I am taken request. Last day of voting! - Click Here To Vote - Just comment my name. Jan. 23rd, 2008Added a site button, its in my READ ME table. Took off the banner for voting at Jadore Contests but keep voting til Friday, please? <3 Added a new feature, VIPs, I pick them. =] Jan. 20th, 2008New Site Of The Week up...its almost midnight so I went ahead and posted it because I wont be on til tomorrow night. Its Elle, from SpAStiCxDiSAStER so check her out. And one more thing! ONE-HUNDRED-&-TEN-SUBSSSS! <3 Jan. 18th, 2008I did decide to merge my quotes from my site AshleiiLOVE onto this site, but I decided not to do the icons, at least for now. Please only comment the quotes ABOUT the quotes and continue commenting in this section for everything other than about the quotes and site of the week apps. Thankyou. Jan. 17th, 2008I hit 300 comments! Thanks everyone!!! <3 As for other news...I decided I am not doing partners anymore. Sorry. Jan. 14th, 2008I put up Subscribe Here & Comment Here signs for those who are navigationally challenged! <3 The 10 new layouts go up today. A ♥ will be next to them, cause the new ones are in various stylesheets. Jan. 13th, 2008First site of the week up! Its Heylee, from Quotes_4_The_Bored so check her out. Also, goal for subs has been met, if I wasnt so tired, Id post the layouts tonight, sorry, I'll do it tomorrow. Jan. 11th, 2008I have 58 subbers right now. As soon as I hit 75 I will drop 10 new layouts. I have 6 made so far, one with a new stylesheet! =] Please subscribe and tell your friends to subscribe. Jan. 9th, 2008I have the biggest thing about checking my footprints, & Ive found over 10 people who have used a layout & not subbed/commented, which sucks in a way, but Im glad people are using them! I would be thrilled to have 50+ subs. So I have a goal. When I hit 75 subs, Ill post 10 new layouts probably of a whole new stylesheet or two! =] Jan. 7, 2008Made three new layouts. Under Style 8 & 9. They're similiar, but different enough that I made them diff styles. Jan. 6, 2008I want to reach 100 comments by the end of the day! I think its possible; Dont you? I'm going to be working on more layouts this morning as well. I want to have 50 layouts up by February. Made a seperate post for applying for site of the week, but those who have already applied dont have to reapply. Jan. 4, 2008Layouts up! 25 @ the moment. More will come soon. Jan. 3, 2008Site will launch tomorrow(4th) if all goes as planned. Jan. 2, 2008Added "Site Of The Week" as a feature to our site. Site goal for opening met. Jan. 1, 2008 Started advertising the opening of the site. Dec. 30, 2007Ashleii made layout site. Super yay! =]
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| My Quotes
Feb. 12, 2008
(1)
He is my hunny bucnh loverface. He is beautiful and he is sexy. He has the biggest heart. He treats me like a princess. He even calls me his princess. He makes me smile. He makes me laugh even more. He gives me bear hugs and long kisses. He is my everything; quite possibly my soulmate. He is my Valentine.
(2)
I lay there wrapped up in his arms.
And its just so cozy and warm.
I lay there filling his heart beat.
And its the best feeling Ive ever had.
(3)
She always wondered what it meant to wear your heart on your sleeve.
Well when she met you, she found out.
(4)
Oh what a fairytale love we have. Just please dont ever let me hear the words "The End"
(5)
No matter how hard I try I'll never be able to stop loving you.
(6)
She said, "What is your favorite thing about me?"
He looked and her and said, "Everything baby, I could never pick just one."
(7)
I guess I never really cared until I met you.
(8)
Standing in the street with the sound of the rain pooring down, the look in your eyes when you kissed me, I knew then how much I loved you.
(9)
So we will keep going as if nothing is wrong and maybe, just maybe, we will make it til the end.
(10)
Sometimes the right people come at the wrong time.
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Jan. 23, 2008
(1)
You've got her mind blowing from all the words flowing through your lips.
(2)
All you have to do is look at me && suddenly I feel like the world is a better place.
(3)
He is my boyfriend.
He is my precious.
He is my everything.
(4)
He has her heart breaking in the palm of your hard.
(5)
What do you do when you love someone so much that if makes you like yourself even less?
(6)
This world isnt what I want it to be.
This world is full of disapointment & pain.
I just want to go back to being with him.
Because our world was full of love & happiness
(7)
She has hate in her eyes.
And shield on her heart.
She's ready this time.
(8)
To think I might not see those eyes, makes it so hard not to cry.
-Snow Patrol
(9)
You've taken me so far away.
One look and you stop time.
(10)
Where are you?
I need you so bad...
Why are you always gone
When I need you most?
Im breaking.
(11)
What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
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Jan. 18, 2008
(1)
Have you ever loved someone so much that it made you like yourself even less?
(2)
Everytime you pass by her she looks like you have just plunged a dagger into her.
(3)
Baby you know that nothing else matters when I am with you. The world stops and I am in my own heaven with you holding me in your arms.
(4)
And he said he loves running his fingers through my hair because I always use that shampoo he loves.
(5)
No one will ever understand me like he does.
No one will ever take the time to forgive me for my flaws.
No one will ever hold me and give me those same butterflies.
No one will ever take the place he has in my heart.
(6)
So maybe guys are suppose to be hott and sexy...or even hansome..
But when I look at him...I think beautiful.
(7)
And every night when I go to sleep all I have left is the memories.
And every night I pray and pray that I wake up without them.
(8)
Some of the people that seem most normal are the most complex that there ever will be.
(9)
To think I might have to live my life without you makes me not want to have to live it.
(10)
The girl that everyone loved.
Not because she was better than them.
But because she made them want to be better.
Such a big loving caring heart.
She would do anything for anyone.
She gave everyone the perfect advice.
Yet she was so confused inside of herself.
Everyone looked at her like she had no problems.
Because she never cared to take care of her own self.
This girl was a beautiful tragedy that you never saw coming.
(11)
Even if you can not see me, I'll always be near.
(12)
And I will show you how it feels.
To be ripped apart.
Broken from the start.
(13)
She's like a queen without a thrown.
(14)
You get the best of me.
And I get the worst of you.
(15)
And lately I just cant sleep without hearing your voice first.
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Jan. 9, 2008
(1)
I just dont belong in anything consisting of a we.
(2)
That girl walks all over anyone who gets in her way. She'd probably walk all over anyone not in her way. She is the it girl everyone dreams of being, but I think all the teen royalty power has began to go to her head.
(3)
Boys just dont make since to girls.
And girls dont make since to boys.
Its just a lose/lose situation apparently.
(4)
&& tonight her heart is as cold as the pint of icecream in her hands.
(5)
She doesn't see how bad he is for her.
She doesn't see the way he uses her.
She doesn't see that it will never happen.
She doesn't see his heart just isn't in it.
All she see's is that plastic smile with those cute dimples.
(6)
I can't go through life like you do.
Pretending it will all be okay, when I know it won't.
So pretend away, but I'm gone.
(7)
He did it fast.
Kinda like tornados come though.
& how they destroy EVERYTHING they touch.
She didnt even see it coming.
It ripped everything out from under her so fast.
She has nothing left now.
No home to go to tonight.
No love to give her comfort.
(8)
Chocolate is her craving.
Fashion is her heart's desire.
Shoes are her addiction.
He is her guilty pleasure.
(9)
Never choose like over love.
It will only lead to your unhappiness.
(10)
Shimming stars up in the sky don't always make your dreams come true.
(11)
Its really not a crush.
I just cant seem to stop thinking about him.
(12)
Theres things about that girl that really make me wonder how she does it. The way she smiles when I would have been crying. The way she laughs through all the insults. The way she can stand high and mighty like she's better than everyone when she really isn't. I wonder.
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Jan. 2, 2008
(1)
&& You say Im fucked up...
But what the hell does that make you?
(2)
I know Im not perfect.
And Im no Jessica Alba.
I dont have the greatest family.
Or a whole heap of money.
I really cant sing to well.
And my dancing is even worse.
I laugh when I shouldnt.
And I cry all the time.
I may be full of complications.
Or a bitch sometimes.
But baby your not pefect either.
And I still love you.
(3)
If I really would've seen you then like I do now...
I wouldn't have ever let you go.
(4)
Oh of course he couldn't just break my heart and disapear. He had to stick around and rub it in that he wasnt mine anymore.
(5)
I guess now I realise it wasnt really love.
If it had been, I wouldnt of questioned it evertime you said those 3 words.
(6)
All I'm asking for is a chance.
For you to give me a shot at love.
(7)
I cant believe its true, but baby my heart was meant for you.
(8)
If I knew you were coming, I would of baked a cake to throw in your face.
(9)
A conclusion is the thing people come to once they've stopped thinking.
(10)
She's restless because nothing else is left of her except for the pain.
(11)
Don't pretend things are fine when they aren't because few people will ever care enough to see that you're just pretending.
(12)
Beautiful girls are just like the not so beautiful girls. Sometimes their insecurities just lie elsewhere.
(13)
And he said laughing, "Wow, I've never seen a girl that falls on her face as much as you."
(14)
I am the kind of girl that yells when I should whisper.
I am the kind of girl that wears jeans and a t shirt to really nice places.
I am the kind of girl that thinks WalMart is the best store ever.
I am the kind of girl that wouldn't be caught dead in those expensive Holister clothes.
I am the kind of girl that doesn't need a boy by my side to make me happy.
I am the kind of girl that is happy with who I am without being fake.
(15)
There on the porch you left me a rose and a note that said, "Stopped by to see you. I guess you're out. I miss you. I love you."
And there on the porch as I sat and read, my heart melted.
(16)
You always had a way of saying the cruelest words my ears had ever heard.
(17)
Loving you was always the answer to my loneliness.
(18)
When I close my eyes
I always see you walking away from me
(19)
Isn't it funny how you can just wake up and realise you aren't inlove with the boy of your dreams anymore?
(20)
The hard part of life is the decisions you have to make.
(21)
there are days that i love you, && days that i dont.
days i'd like to be friends. && days that i wont.
days i'll pick up the phone && give you a call.
days im so sad i dont want to talk to you at all
days i look back at the things that we shared.
days i question myself if you really even care.
theres so many things i wish i could say,
but im scared it will all come out in the wrong way
no matter how much time goes by, i'll always be by your side
cuz i couldn`t stop loving you ...even if i tried
-Not mine but I forgot where it came from
My 2007 Quotes
Dec. 26, 2007
(1)
Its all so familiar.
Everytime we play this game.
The taste of your lips.
The feel of your fingertips.
The smell of your cologne.
The way I dont feel so alone.
The attention that you bring.
The love song you always sing.
Its all so familiar.
Cause it works everytime.
(2)
Maybe I'll let you stay after I see you'd crawl over broken glass to have me.
(3)
I know now that I am just a fool for you.
(4)
Eventually a broken heart can mend.
You just might need a needle and some thread.
(5)
The memories of us keep me strong the days when I miss you so much I can barely make it.
(6)
I wake up every morning and reach out for you. And everytime I rediscover you arent there anymore, my heart breaks all over again.
(7)
She said, "Look at me!" And so he did.
She said, "What could I do to make you happy." And he didnt say a word.
She said, "I'm just never good enough I guess". And he rolled his eyes at her.
So she looked down at the ground and stopped talking..
He said, "Look at me!" And so she did.
He said, "You cant do anything to make me happier because Im the happiest Ive ever been been when Im with you, and trust me, its not that you're not good enough, its just that you're too good to be true, you're perfect and I love you."
(8)
Face it doll.
We're all each other's got.
And to me...
That's alot.
(9)
Everytime I turn around.
There you are.
All in my face.
Telling me what kind of
person I should be.
(10)
All this shit is messing with my head.
(11)
Q: "Why are you dating him?"
A: "Because my heart would break without him."
(12)
You're to much for me to handle this time.
So I'm calling a quits.
(13)
I stay by the phone waiting hour after hour for you to call me && I stare out the window waiting to see if your call pulls into the driveway...
It really makes time go by so slowly, but I just can't be bothered to do anything else.
(14)
I don't know what would cause me to fall for the one person I couldn't have. That beautiful golden boy who of course already has the perfect girlfriend. The optimous bestfriend I've known for years. The boy next door that I played with as kids. The boy who knows my first heartbreak and I know his first crush. He is so perfect, of course I fell for him, but now what?
(15)
She said, "You're selfish. You're unkind. You're a backstabber. You're a bitch. You're a horrible person."
I replied, "So I'm just like you?"
(16)
Before we fall asleep laying in each others arms pinch me and let me know I'm not already dreaming.
(17)
I waited for such a long time for you to leave her.
I begged.
I cried when you left my arms to go back to her all those times.
I begged you not to.
I finally realised you were lieing all those times you said you'd come back and stay for good.
I guess now I'm done begging.
(18)
Sometimes you have to give up the only thing that was worth living for.
(19)
Life seems so easy until you face the choices you have to make.
(20)
I will walk out that door one day and you wont ever see my face again.
(21)
Its the way you say every word and phrase and I never know exactly what it was suppose to mean.
(22)
No need to be nice to me of course.
I'm only the one person that ever gave a shit about you after all.
(23)
Nervously and cautiously is how I live my life ever since you happened to it.
(24)
He tells her everyday that she is the most beautiful person God ever created.
(25)
The feeling you give me in my tummy and the smile across my face is all the proof you need to know that I'm head over heels for you.
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Dec. 19, 2007
(1)
&& she said "baby your my inspiration"
(2)
She wonders how people even breathe through all their lieing words and broken promises...
(3)
Im so inlove with you that I dont think 'inlove' is a big enough word for it.
- Direct quote I said to my bf 12/16/07
(4)
I look at the world in such contempt and disbelief to how this rechid thing of existance could be forced upon us.
(5)
People dont have to try and fuck up their lives, its like it comes naturally.
(6)
Ever guy I date makes me consider being a lezbian more and more.
(7)
Dont you get that you're the only thing that makes me feel safe?
(8)
The tears fall down her face in such abundant streams, she finally gave up on wiping them away.
(9)
Im aware of this chemical reaction between us.
Im aware of the way you look at me.
Im aware of that craving for your touch I have.
Im aware of what we could be.
But I know what we arent.
(10)
Sex without getting attached.
Good luck with that.
Thats like jumping off a 100 story building.
And praying you know how to fly.
(11)
Sure we could play pretend with our feelings && continue this on and off game we've been playing for so long now. But at this point it has begun to hurt & Id really rather not.
(12)
boy: come here
girl: okay
boy: cuddle me?
girl: *giggles* okay, ill cuddle you & kiss you & love you forever
boy: *smiles* thats all i ever want
(13)
And he said, "You'll get over me." And I just sat there wondering what the hell made him so sure of that when I love him so damn much. How could he expect me to just get over him so fast....unless he was already over me.
(14)
Just give me the chance to explain that I cant live without you and all the reasons why.
(15)
Theres something about him that makes my heart beat harder, my smile bigger, my laugh louder, and my breath a bit deeper.
(16)
I need you so incredibly bad that I find it hard to breathe without you in my presense.
(17)
You have no idea what you could do to me baby.
You could make me the happiest Ive ever been or you could make me the most miserable.
That will be your choice.
(18)
I use to long for the day that Id be able to look at you and tell you yes. I thought that one day I would finally stop being so afraid of what would happen if I took the chance. But I kept saying no. And you stopped asking.
(19)
She acts like she's happy && she expects you to believe it.
(20)
I hold on for dear life when Im with you.
Its the scariest & biggest rollercoaster Ive ever been on.
(21)
If I could look back to an exact point in time when the world stopped and I became a whole different person where life became miserable and hearts became breakable, Id go back a day before that.
(22)
I broke a few boys hearts of course && that hurt me to hurt them. I got dumped a few times as well which definitely sucked. But until you I never lost a night of sleep crying my eyes out hoping you'd change your mind about us.
(23)
Dont waste your time on me darling.
I wont live up to your expectations.
(24)
Im not good for you.
I will destroy anything good in your life.
Trust me.
I ruin everything I touch.
(25)
Love:
I held my breath.
I closed my eyes.
I stood on the ledge.
And held out my arms.
I got pushed off.
(26)
She stares at the beauty of nature & wonders why something so pure and good is constantly destroyed by natural disasters. Then it comes to her. Its just natural. Nature like life naturally goes through cycles of destruction and pain. What a concept.
(27)
Her parents just dont understand.
She doesnt want to be like them.
She won't give up her dreams.
Not for anything.
Not for anyone.
Not like they did.
She has ambition.
She has the will.
She will be someone.
She knows she will.
(28)
If Heaven & Hell cant keep us apart then neither can the rest of the world.
(29)
I am tarnished & confused.
One day I am hateful & cold.
The next I am loving & needy.
Should I stay or should I go?
I have no idea what I want.
Or maybe I do.
-Sigh
(30)
&& for the first time, she caught a glimpse of herself in the mirror actually smiling. This girl looked happy. She looked as if she were the type of girl that smiled all the time. She looked unfazed. She looked unbroken. And for the first time she felt like maybe things were finally getting better.
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Dec. 13, 2007
(1)
I just wish I could live my life sedated.
(2)
What I miss the most is the hours we spent lying together in silence. Just listening to each other breathe. There was such a closeness about it, and it made me feel whole again. There was a calmness about it, and it just took my breath from me. I'll never forget that feeling, and nothing will ever beat it.
(3)
No hunny...you dont have to try to drive me away. I do that just fine on my own.
(4)
That boy is the one I cant imagine a day without. That boy is the one that knows all my dirty little secrets & likes to bring them up just to make fun of me. That boy is the one that hugs me when I need someone. That boy is like an angel. That boy...he's just a friend.
(5)
I dont want to be just another girl in your life. I dont want to be just another 2 week thing you did to pass time. I want to be more, so much more.
(6)
Im falling apart.
&& Im barely breathing.
But I keep fighting.
(7)
I hope that someday you will let me go && release my heart from this cage.
(8)
So tell us we're crazy because we scream at the top of our lungs we hate each other then sit right back down and each cookies while we talk about all the gossip at school. Call us weird because even though Friends ended years ago, we sit there hours upon hours watching reruns & deciding which character we're most like. Call us bitches cause if you fuck with one of us, the other will trash your name all over the place then laugh. Call us whatever you want, but in the end, we're just bestfriends.
(9)
You & me - we just dont fit.
But for now - I dont mind.
(10)
You keep me so damn asphyxiated && thats just the way you like it.
(11)
I cant stop thinking about you.
I cant stop remembering your smell.
I cant stop reliving it all.
Maybe Im addicted.
(12)
Why do you want to know the truth so bad?
Its like you are just begging for me to hurt you.
Its like you crave the pain.
I dont think you know how to live without it.
(13)
We can pretend that we've moved on. We'll walk past each other like we dont see, when really it kills us not to stare. We'll think about deleting each other's numbers from our phones as we contimplate calling each other but never actually do either. We'll look back at all the bad times and try to remember why we're doing this, but somehow, we only remember the good. We can pretend we've moved on. But pretend is just that.
(14)
You never really wanted me to know all the things that would hurt me, and I know that.
Of course you didnt want me to know.
But saying you didnt want to hurt me, I dont believe that.
If that we're true, I dont think you would have ever actually done it.
(15)
I look at the reckage of my screwed up past and wonder how you managed to turn that all around when you magically popped into my life.
(16)
Im sorry for changing on you && Im sorry for the person that I have become. But after all that hell you put me through, did you really expect me to stay the same && do you really expect me to care now?
(17)
I just need your love.
Thats all.
(18)
Dont think Im weak because I cry.
I am strong because I admit I cry.
Dont think I dont know what I want because I said I dont.
I said I dont know because I dont want to answer you.
Dont think you know me just by one look.
Im more complicated than you could ever understand.
(19)
I love the way that as soon as you walk into a room, you become all that I see.
(20)
Once upon a time. There was a girl. She was so unhappy with her life & felt so incomplete. One day, he came along. He turned out to be a huge suprise. She started smiling more and more. She began laughing and giggling. She felt whole for the first time in her life. She fell inlove. -This story hasnt ended yet so I'll leave it at: To be continued.
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Dec. 4, 2007
(1)
You know what would really make me happy? If everyone would STOP telling me they understand how I feel.
(2)
And I honestly believe that my boyfriend is also my future husband.
(3)
She's a teenager & she thinks she knows everything there is to know....and she's soooo wrong.
(4)
So tell me the sugar coated truth & lets continue living our living our lives in a few layers of denial & misguided truths.
(5)
Being happy; Thats all she every really wanted. Who knew that was so much to ask for?
(6)
Sing me a lullaby; happy & sweet.
(7)
I live in a place of loss & regret & I long for faith & love.
(8)
It doesnt take all the gifts & money to make me happy...it just takes you.
(9)
When you think about giving up...Remember what you could lose if you stopped fighting for it.
(10)
My head says that I know I love you, but my heart is just such a mess.
(11)
Reality says Im just a disaster waiting to happen.
(12)
I can see a world painted in bright colors & smiley faces, I just cant seem to get to it.
(13)
Baby, you killed me completely.
(14)
And you dont see the pain I'm in.
And you dont see the bandaids all over my heart.
And you dont see how close I am to breaking.
But I see that you dont care.
(15)
Oh how I adore that boy's beautiful smile & blue eyes.
(16)
The question is: Can you take all the emotions away now that everyone has changed and nothing else is real?
(17)
All I want for Christmas is my one true love.
(18)
Lets go back to 2 years ago to that very first kiss & the way you starred into my eyes. Lets go back to when you wrapped me up in your arms and held me so tight and promised that you'd never let go. Lets go back to the first time you said 'I love you'. Lets go back to the days before all the fighting and pain started. Lets go back with the knowledge of the mistakes we made. Lets restart and not mess it up this time.
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Nov. 28, 2007
(1)
Trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me.
(2)
I'm a couple dozen different people. I guess it depends on which day and which person Im with. Its not so easy being all these people at once. Its not so easy trying to please everyone else. But when Im with him, I think that maybe, I am me, cause with him, I dont feel so fake.
(3)
Some things that are broken just arent fixable. My heart might be one of them.
(4)
Its like you are always watching me & waiting for the perfect moment to destroy me all over again. You wait until I finally can move on. You wait til Ive finally found some happiness. Then you walk your ass back into my life & everything goes to hell all over again & take it all away from me.
(5)
She smiles and laughs like she is the happiest girl in the world with absolutely no problems. But the truth is, I dont think Ive ever known anyone as miserable & troubled as that girl. I guess she just got good at pretending.
(6)
Everytime I hear his name, I turn to see if its him. Everytime I see him my eyes light up. Everytime he looks at me I think my heart stops beating. Everytime he hugs me I melt inside. Everytime he kisses me I lose my breath..
(7)
She's the girl with the wildest, carefree attitude I think Ive ever seen & sometimes she's also a crazy bitch I cant stop laughing at. She's the girl I spend the night with and we stay up til five in the morning when normally Im in bed at midnight. She's the girl that ruins every diet I go on because we eat pints of icecream & bags of oreos while we cry together over The Notebook. She's the girl I plot 100s of schemes with asbout how to get the things we want. She's the girl I turn to for any problem I have ever had. She's the girl I am more myself with. She's the girl that laughs at me for days when I do something ditsy. She's the girl that I make up stupid words with. She's the girl that Id die without. She's the girl I dont call a bestfriend. She's the girl I call a true friend.
(8)
And he said, "You can cry your heart out boy, but you wont ever be the one for her, it'll always be me.."
(9)
I guess I knew things had changed all along. You stopped calling me unless I asked you to call. You didnt text just to say "ily" anymore. When we laid on the phone til we were tired you stopped spilling your heart out to me about how much you loved me and wanted to be with me til the day you die. Shit, you even stopped staying on the phone til you were tired. Hugs and kisses werent as frequent or as often. I should of known, I just should have seen it coming.
(10)
Just because you dont love me now doesnt me I cant spend my life hoping you will someday....
(11)
And at night while you're asleep, I lay awake and whisper in your ear that I love you and cant live without you.
(12)
There are 2 or 3 or 10 sides to every story.
(13)
"Silly girl, you should have known he'd break your heart," she said as she starred at her reflection in the mirror.
(14)
And we all know by now that love hurts, but when you love someone and they love you, sometimes its worth all the pain in the world...cause not having it, that hurts much, much more.
(15)
His love taught me a valuable lesson: Love is EVERYTHING.
(16)
I know Im to good for this place.
And I know I gotta get out.
(17)
I could never let him go because that'd be basically giving up any reason I ever had to live.
(18)
So maybe its corny or cheesy, but I honestly believe, we were made for each other.
(19)
And she says one day she will take on the world and be strong, and brave, and beautiful...and everyone will know her name and everyone will love her. Such a dreamer that girl is..
(20)
So we'll lay beneath the stars on a warm autumn night & tell each other our most embarrassing secrets.
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Nov. 21, 2007
(1)
I love you like I never have, never could love anyone else.
(2)
Oh hunny, we changed each other in little ways and big. All those precious and cute things. Like the way there was always that one word you would mispell, and I finally got you to spell it right. The way you touched me & found all my tickleish spots, even ones I didnt know I had. And those little habbits we picked up from each other. The words we started to say. The way we started sleeping late cause we stayed up so late talking on the phone about anything and everything. We really did have an impact on each others lives.
(3)
You say its odd that I stay on the phone with him for 5 hours at a time and you wonder what we talk about. Truth is, I have no idea what we talk about, I guess its just a little bit of everything, it just flows on by and before I know it, its been hours.
(4)
I dont need the sun.
I dont need the moon.
I dont need the stars.
I dont need the lamps.
All I need is him.
He is the brightest light.
(5)
I know I may be north & south, and up & down, and you say you just dont understand me sometimes. But baby, I believe you are the ONLY one that really does understands me.
(6)
Its because when Im with you..I dont feel so alone.
(7)
Please tell me I am your everything and you want to spend your life with me. Because thats how I feel about you.
(8)
&& his voice keeps me sain.
(9)
Hopel Faith; Inspiration...
Just a few things you gave back to me.
(10)
My life doesnt mean anything without you in it.
(11)
Its because I live and breathe for you every day that Im still alive.
[12)
&& I named a teddy bear after you and I sleep with it everynight.
(13)
Game over. Its not fun anymore & Im tired of playing.
(14)
I finally figured out the reason everything hurts so much is just a sign that Im growing up. Everything is SO confusing. Nothing is simple. NOTHING. And things arent black and white. When you grow up, things become more real. Love goes from more than an innocent hug & kiss between loved ones to heartache, devistations, fears. Happiness is compramised by other people's misery. Money gets in the way of everything with all of its corruption. Education becomes the hardest thing to get between all the drama of the day but without it, you know you're life is down the drain. Life isnt as carefree anymore. All actions have consequences. People stop taking care of you and its time to fend for your own self. When you fall down now, people arent gonna kiss you better and give you a sucker. You have to stand up on your own and walk it off like nothing is wrong, like it doesnt hurt. So much pressure put on every word, every thought, every action....and during all of this, you're told GROW UP over and over again. Well, Im trying but its harder than I thought it'd be.
-My personal favorite..
(15)
If its something else you're looking for, then you're looking in the wrong direction. This is all I am and all I will ever be.
(16)
And deep down, she knows, if she lost him, she'd be losing the only person she's ever been comfortable with; the only person who could make her whole; the only person she trust; the only person who makes this life worth living; and the only one that ever really cared.
(17)
Im sorry I hurt you. Im sorry I pushed you away. Im sorry I couldnt just open up. Im sorry I just couldnt tell you I loved you so much that I was to scared to just open up to you about the most important thing of all. I guess now I see, opening up to you, was the best thing I could of done, cause being with you, being close to you, is the most comfort I have ever had, and I dont know why I ever tried to live without that, even for just a day. And Im so sorry that sorry doesnt fix it.
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Nov. 17, 2007
(1)
I might not be able to give you everything you ever wanted. But I could die trying if you'd let me.
(2)
Faking happiness is no way to be happy.
On the other hand...if you like to be miserable.
Pretending to be something your not works.
(3)
Maybe the reason Im alone and secluded, locked away in my bedroom with the music blasting so loud you cant hear yourself think is because without you Im alone anyways so I might as well seclude myself, && the doors are locked so no one walks in while Im crying & ripping your pictures apart, && the music is up so loud so I can concentrate on something other than my breaking heart.
(4)
I guess I woke up today
& decided this is best for me.
At least for a while.
So Im giving up on us.
&& Im giving up on love.
(5)
Your the handsom knight.
Im the damsel in distress.
Help.
(6)
If you think for 1 second that Im not laying up at night crying about what we had, Your dead wrong
(7)
Sometimes you can be a little intense.
You take what I say completely wrong.
You get the wrong impressions from the right actions.
You make things a bit to uncomfortable for my likings.
You make me feel worthless and somewhat crazy.
You drive me way past my breaking point.
&& this is some place I just cannot be.
(8)
You think I finally stopped crying over you.
But I think I just ran out of tears.
(9)
Maybe the saying "you dont what know you had til its gone" is wrong. Maybe its actually "you dont know what you had til its someone elses."
(10)
If I dont even know who I am,
What makes you think you do?
(11)
We were friends.
The absolute best.
We were lovers
The kind in novels.
We were mneant to be.
What happened?
(12)
Once I had him, I knew Id never be complete again without him.
(13)
So much for the promises & the word forever. Cause you arent here amymore and forever is lost. Its just a word now, one of the most painful words Ive ever heard.
(14)
When you left me here crying over what I thought we were, I think you kept my heart & buried it in some deserted place, because its been a while now & I still cant feel it beating.
(15)
And how will I ever be me again
When you killed so much of it.
(16)
Im incomplete without you.
Thats why I keep holding on.
(17)
You say my eyes are so beautiful.
That they sparkle and shine.
But baby when I look at you.
How could they not.
(18)
Everyone just keeps moving on and waiting for a better day, but I just want to stay in this one forever with you.
(19)
Im trying so hard to figure this out.
Id give anything for it to be simpler.
I just keep trying.
But at this point, I dont even know what it is Im trying to figure out.
(20)
Im sad that Im making him sad.
Im miserable that he's miserable.
But I cant say that Im hurting like he is right now, cause Im not, and I dont know why.
(21)
Truth is...fairytales arent real. They're just stories. Guys are not princes. And the certainly dont rescue you. Guys today just cause you more pain than you were in in the first place. And if you want that happily ever after, you have to look for it, it doesnt just come along everyday and sweep you off your feet. And when you get something sorta like that dream come true romance, you have to fight for it & work your ass off to keep it.
(22)
What if lobsters really liked jacuzzis and right before we dropped them in the boiling pot of water, they thought we were the nicest people in the world cause we were putting them in a jacuzzi. Wouldnt that be ironic?
-Van from Reba
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Nov. 10, 2007
(1)
I think it was me.
It must of been me.
I guess I did something wrong.
I tried to hard.
I wanted to much.
I guess thats why he's gone.
-LeAnn & Reba
(2)
its love that always gets her
its her drug
its her heartache
its her high
its her low
its all she has
(3)
Sometimes
when I have something to tell you,
I hesitate - and wonder...
just how much of my feelings
I should allow to be seen,
and how you'll react to my words.
I know that I shouldnt be afraid
to tell you anything...
but Im still sort of new
at being in this situation,
and I feel a little uneasy about
saying just whatever's on my mind.
But you know, dont you...
of my feelings for you,
whether they're spoken or not...
-Jamie Delere
(4)
If I could hold your hands and never have to let go, trust me....I would.
(5)
Im not saying he's mister right.
But he sure kicks ass as mister right now.
-About A Girl
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Nov. 2, 2007
(1)
The saddest I had ever been
Was when you looked at me
& I realised that your heart
Didnt belong to me anymore
(2)
You have exactly 60 seconds
To convince me that you wont break my heart
Like every other boy did.
(3)
The only thing scarier than being alone in the dark is knowing your not.
(4)
After faking a smile for such a long time,
After laughing even when she wasnt amused,
After hiding the tears from you everyday,
After pretending she was happy no matter what,
After covering the scars she gave herself,
After keeping everything inside that it hurt her to bad to go on,
She gave up everything...including her life.
(5)
I tell myself...
If you knew how much I was hurting
You wouldnt be doing this to me.
(6)
Maybe if I hadnt of yelled at you,
Maybe if I hadnt of slammed the door in your face,
Maybe if we would of never had that fight,
Maybe if I were more honest with my feelings,
Maybe if I hadnt of lied so much,
Maybe if I would of tried harder to make it work,
Maybe if I would of cared more than I did,
We wouldnt of ended up like this.
(7)
Suddenly I dont think I could ever love him the same. I dont know how to anymore.
(8)
I loved you with a fire red, but now it's turning blue.
-Timbaland & One Republic
(9)
If I were to spend my life without you,
Id be forced to spend my life without a part of myself.
(10)
Happiness;
Love;
Faith;
Hope;
Peace;
Clarity;
More things to add to the list of things I have to live without.
(11)
The place I feel loved.
The place I dont cry constantly.
The place I have more than I could ask for.
The place of true happiness.
The place of no worries or sorrows.
The place of beauty & peace.
..Is just a place I dreamed of once.
(12)
I miss the days that I was a princess dressed up in a bath robe.
And you were a knight in shining armor with a plastic sword.
Saving me from the evil castle...which was actually a tree house.
And I miss how we would chase each other around cause we couldnt bare to be apart.
The days when we loved each other endlessly but kissing was icky and if we tried it, we might get cooties.
Maybe we were right back then about cooties...just not sure what it meant.
Maybe cooties from kissing meant feelings.
Like we just sorta knew getting feelings or "cooties" would only cause us to hurt...and somehow as 5 year olds, we just knew it would only make us lose that carefree happiness.
And maybe thats why I keep wishing I could go back to being a kid.
(13)
I pretend I hate you because if I admitted how I really felt...I have a feeling that you're the type of boy that would use me up until my heart was spent out, play with me like your favorite game then dump me when something better came along, and rip me apart and destroy me so that I would forever be useless in the love department.
(14)
I just want to go to a place far far away where my heart doesnt dangle on strings. A place where your voice doesnt echo in my ears & your face isnt the first thing I see when I close my eyes. A place where you & I are such a distant memory that I completely forget there was ever an us to begin with.
(15)
So maybe Ive had a few prince charmings
And the occasional bad boys.
A lot of mister let me downs.
Some rather odd experiences.
And yes, I have had a couple of heartbreaks
and broken a few hearts as well.
But now where do I go from here?
(16)
I understand now that I wanted him to be the right guy so bad that I didnt see I wasnt ready to admit he wasnt the right guy and I wasnt the right girl.
(17)
So as always...I will cry in the shower so you dont see the tears and all the pain Im in. I will get out after all the mirrors are steamed up and draw broken hearts all over the mirrors with my finger then wipe them all away until a new day comes.
(18)
How was I suppose to know our entire relationship was built on a shitload of lies, deception, cheating, and your fake ass "i love you" bullshit.
(19)
I know I keep pushing you away.
And you keep pushing back.
But I think its time to stop pushing.
I think I just need space this time.
(20)
So talk your shit girl.
I have way more class than you ever will.
We both know that.
And at the end of the day,
You may have got my man.
But truth is...
Im better off without him.
You did me a favor.
And when this is all over...
Your the only one getting screwed over.
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Oct. 27, 2007
(1)
Beautiful girl in a disaster kinda life.
(2)
My insurance does not cover PMS.
-10 Things I Hate About You
(3)
She doesn't know the word 'impossible'
(4)
You see all these fabulous people.
And all you can do is envy them.
You wish nothing more than to be these amazing people.
Life just isnt the same for them, right?
It must be so much better.
Wrong.
(5)
I just want a boy to tell me I am the most beautiful, amazing, wonderful, precious girl that he has ever met in his life. I want a boy to accept me how I am & not fight me to be who I just cannot be. I want a boy to just hold me and hug me and not be thinking of what Im like in bed. I want him to think WE are the luckiest people in the world to have found each other. I want him sooooo bad. Where is he?
(6)
Sometimes I think I'm truly crazy because I love you this much.
(7)
"I shall never forget that you were responsible for my happiness."
-But she wasnt really happy, was she?
(8)
They were perfect. They were beautiful. They met in the middle of nowhere, in the middle of nothing. And they kissed while everyone watched. No before. No after. They kissed & it was perfect. It was beautiful. It was everything. It was nothing.
(9)
They all stared. Stared as if to turn their noses up at her. And she just smiled at them. Smiled and smiled trying to hide how they made her feel.
(10)
Where is your heart when Im not around?
(11)
Dress me up...head to toe. I still wont change on the inside.
(12)
Letting everyone down would be my greatest unhappiness.
-Marie Antoinette
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Oct. 22, 2007
(1)
I wish that it would just go away
All these feelings inside..
The way I love you
The way I dont believe it will ever end
(2)
When I turn the lights out
When I close my eyes
Reality over comes me
Im living a lie.
-Avril
(3)
She said, "Please wake me up & hold me again."
(4)
He is the boy that I love with all I am.
The boy I cant live without.
Even if that means loving from afar.
(5)
You know I like you
So you just tease me
You give me just enough
To hang on
Enough
When your just waisting my time
-Boomkat
(6)
Everytime I feel our hands touch.
Our fingers lace.
I pray that this time you wont let go.
(7)
Touch me.
Like you mean it.
(8)
Life is just so much better when your in it.
(9)
She made herself a promise.
This year she will let loose
She will be free
She wont be on the sidelines
She will party til she drops
Sshe wont keep it bottled up
She will sing her lungs out
She will move on
No more thinking of you
This year will be the year
It all makes sense again
This will be the year
She finds herself
(10)
I look to the furure
But all I see is you
(11)
So once upon a time
This boy broke my heart
But thats not how the story ends
Just how it began
But I have a feeling
It will be a while
Before this fairytale
Comes to a happy end
(12)
The world is quiet,
like there is no one around,
but I feel you beside me
-Aqua
(13)
I cant turn back time
I cant make you see
I was the one for you
All that time...
Its to late now
(14)
Every word you speak I hate you more.
But I cant stop listening.
Every touch hurts me so much.
But I just cant resist.
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Oct. 7, 2007
(1)
Dont have sex.
Cause you will get pregnet & die.
Dont have sex in the missionary position.
Dont have sex standing up.
Just dont do it,
Okay promise?
Now everyone take some rubbers.
-Mean Girls
(2)
Who needs affection when you have blind hatred.
-10 Things I Hate About You
(3)
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.
-Hawthorne Heights
(4)
No matter how hard I try
I'll never be able to say no.
(5)
Im not typically the type of person
To fall quickly in & out of love
But to you
I gave my affection
Right from the start
(6)
As she stared in the mirror
Pictures of him covering her walls
She began to think
Maybe this is more than love.
(7)
Girls have secrets
Girls have tricks
Girls are sneaky
Girls intend to get what they want
I wanted you
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Oct. 4, 2007
(1)
Under the stars
Where you held me the first time
It was so cute
How you shyly pulled me closely
The way you took my hand with yours
&& at that moment I knew
You loved me
Like I loved you
(2)
Once upon a time..he took me to the highschool dance. He took me out on the dance floor. && He looked at me and said, "You're a princess." He had my heart.
(3)
If I pushed you a.w.a.y.
Its not cause you hurt me.
Its cause I finally learned my lesson.
(4)
She fades away
Into the shadows
Trying to hide
Her heart bleeding
From the i.n.s.i.d.e out
(5)
I love you
But I hate you
Im afraid to live without you
Your my addiction
And I'll never get enough
(6)
She's glad for one day of comfort
Only because she has suffered
-flyleaf
(7)
Remember we were thirteen?...We would run through the m.u.d.d.y fields in our ripped jeans, no shoes, and our bikini tops. We screamed at the top of our lungs. We said forever, and we meant it. We were best friends. We were sisters. And thankgod we still are, cause without you, what would I do?
(8)
I never knew why he picked me until he told me... Out of all the girls he ever talked to, all the ones that looked at him with g.l.i.t.t.e.r.i.n.g eyes...I was the only one who wasnt a fake, cake-faced, stuckup w.h.o.r.e.
(9)
Sixteen && I believed I was inlove with you. Happy as I can be. I was sixteen and found my first love cheating on me. Sweet sixteen sure did h.u.r.t like hell.
(10)
Hollister jeans.
Pink tanktop.
Coach purses.
Oversized sunglasses.
Million dollar face.
Head in the clouds.
She was the it girl..
..Liven the city life.
(11)
The taste of your kiss could take anyone's breath away..
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Oct. 2, 2007
(1)
Did you ever just look at me
&& think I was the one for you?
I did
(2)
It didnt care that you left and abandoned me
What hurts more is I would still die for you
-armor for sleep
(3)
It was there in the dark
When no one else was there
&& you came to my rescue
It was the way you held me
When I needed warmth
&& you showed you cared
After all this time apart
I cant help but want you back
(4)
I could lie there for hours
Thinking about anything in the world
But every so often Id smile
When I began to think of you
(5)
He said, "I dont know anyone as p.e.r.f.e.c.t as you."
She said, "Im not perfect."
He replied, "You are to me baby, and thats all that matters."
(6)
You faded out
But it took so long
Its tainted
I let it s.l.i.p a.w.a.y
(7)
Well Im buried in my bedroom
Under fourteen feet of clothes
I could drown in all this clutter
(8)
Everynight she blast that music up
Sings her lungs out
&& feels like herself
For the first time that day
(9)
He is the best thing about you
&& you know its true
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Sept. 28, 2007
(1)
It wasnt the way you left her that hurt.
It was the way you didnt wipe her tears away this time.
(2)
&& the thing was...
she always had a feeling
things would end
drastically
painfully
and miserably
but she still held on so long
(3)
im far from lonely
&& its all that ive got
- the used
(4)
now that i had my heart broken
now that ive watched my bestfriends turn their backs on me
now that ive lost someone i cared about dearly
now that the rain has stopped pooring everyday
im still not sure how to make it to the next day
(5)
he is the one that she never thought she'd have. actually if you would of asked her 2 years ago...this boy: well, he just didnt exist. he is the one that came out of nowhere. he swept her off her feet. with him...things were different and by different, she meant amazing. he wasnt like what she expected love to be. it was hard but so fun. it was challenging and it thrilled her. it made her cry, but he was the only one who made the tears fade. he is what wakes her up everyday. the light in her life. without him...lets not think about that. he is her only one. he is her everything.
(6)
If you really know her the way you say you do
How could you not see how much she loves you?
(7)
Have you ever seen her?
The girl with a pretty face
The girl that doesnt quite fit in
The girl you wish you were
The girl that wishes she were you
(8)
If you dare to love
You dare to get hurt
(9)
She's a young girl
In a crazy world
She is free
And she is wild
With an untainted heart
And all that innocence
Ready to take on the world |
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