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Name: Paula
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Gender: Female
Interests: God, soccer, drawing, writing, singing, soccer, ddr, running, soul caliber 2, halo, sniping, snooping, smurfing, randomness, boredom, guitars, music, singing, my dog, Gilmore Girls, martial arts, eating, and sleeping.
Expertise: procrastinating, sulking, sitting, watching, lazing, sarcasm, lame comebacks, eating, and sleeping....
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Other
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Member Since:
3/22/2003
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| good songhere's a song that keeps popping up on pandora that really hits home every time
"Take my Life"- Third Day "How many times
have I turned away?
The number is the same as the sand on the shore.
But every time You've taken me back,
And now I pray You do it once more.
Chorus:
Please take from me my life,
When I don't have the strength...
to give it away to You Jesus
How many times
have I turned away?
The number is the same as the stars in the sky.
But every time You've taken me back,
And now I pray You do it tonight."
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|  | Currently Watching
I Am Legend
By Alice Braga, Charlie Tahan, Thomas J. Pilutik, Salli Richardson, Paradox Pollack
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[typed at 7pm ]
I’m on the road, nearly at our designated location (Boston). We’re headed there to visit Reggie and Leigh at their apt for a week or so. It’s expected to be a splendid time.
“I think I’ll go to Boston, I think I’ll start a new life…where no one knows my name”
This trip has been anxiously anticipated, however I fear time has passed so quickly to arrive here.
Time is passing far too quickly, and soon I will be propelled into the “real world”…As ready as I am, it still manages to terrify me a bit. There are so many expectations of me given by the people around me as well as myself, and I just hope I fulfill those of importance.
I have resolutions, which I don’t always make for the New Year. My greatest resolution is to strengthen the bonds/relationships that I hold the closest to me. A big thing I lack is the ability to communicate well, and I feel like I need to do so. Phone calls are something I have never enjoyed making, but I do enjoy talking to the people that I love.... So I know I need to make an effort to call people, regardless of their effort to call me. This includes God, because I don’t talk to him enough either. I do talk to Him alot, but not enough. There’s one large communication issue with my life. I hope to rectify this situation.
Another resolution I have is to practice the guitar and actually be able to play a plethora of songs. Music is one of my passions, and there is no reason that my laziness should get in the way of me following it.
I’m there. Boston, that is.
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| "and the truth is...I miss you..."-Coldplay, warning Sign
I miss you xanga. I'm sorry I've abandoned you.
I've been busy, but I know it's not an excuse.
I will attempt an update:
I've joined boxing club, officially. Coach says he wants me to compete sometime in the future. I'm going to aim for next year. I can tell my strength is definitely improving, but I really want to heighten my endurance. I'm generally the only girl in the club (there are one or two that come every once and a while) and I enjoy it a lot. It's definitely a way to get out any aggression I have.
My house has a broomball team, and I'm the captain. Broomball is the most competitive/popular intramural sport here at ISU. We've made it to the finals, which is tomorrow night. I've made the winning point the past 3 games, and I'm glad God has given me the strength to fulfill my role as a captain and power forward. I think I like the sport so much because it reminds me of playing street hockey with my brothers when I was little. I think that's where I get my ball handling skills from.
I've been heavily involved with various organizations concerning graphic design, which makes for good portfolio pieces.
I love my friends here. "The group" has definitely changed a bit since last year, but from what I hear and see the change is for the best. It's sad to see people who I once looked up to disappointing me in word and action, but I suppose that's what I get for trusting in the world and not enough in God. The biggest change is that it's not really a group anymore, because we realized how secluded and exclusive that group was. We've all branched out a good amount but we still have a center with eachother that is based off of our close relationships with God, which is a beautiful thing. We encourage eachother the best we can and try to be accountability partners for eachother.
I am alone as far as romantic relationships are concerned... but that is much better than adhering to the next best thing. I'm glad that God has given me the discernment and the joy so that I'm okay. It was bothering me at first because everyone around me has someone. But i think that God is telling me that the best is yet to come. So I'm not worried. I'm at PEACE (psheah). I might have to be a 3rd or 5th wheel sometimes...or even just 1 wheel...but that's okay. God has someone for me. I don't know when I will find out...but I know it's not for me right now.
What's important is to spread the love of God, and to do my best in all I do (all the while trusting in Him). and I'm going to be just fine...
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| I think God’s trying to tell me something…
The other day I was looking for my keys…I was in that crazed panic state where I start to fling everything around. I did so for quite some time, then I got the idea to get down on my knees and pray. I did so upon my bed, and less than a minute later I found my keys…directly under where I prayed, in the sheets of my bed.
Today, I somehow dropped my ID card. This one didn’t actually make any sense because as soon as I dropped I realized I didn’t have it and crazily searched for it exactly where it should have been, and everything else in a 20 foot radius. However, something was blinding me from seeing it. I retraced my steps. I walked back to my room, and crazily searched around the room. I couldn’t find it. I started to return to that panic stage…then finally remembered what had happened last time I lost something—and I prayed. Less than a FEW SECONDS after I had said my amen, I heard a knock at my door. I opened the door to reveal my house’s janitor with an outstretched arm and hand. In her hand was my ID card.
I think God’s trying to tell me something…
I should probably listen this time.
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| hm...I'm in Ames getting my business done...for being an RA that is. I generally love my staff. The few residents i've met are cool. I can tell it's going to be a bit of a taxing job, however I know it's worth it. I really like being here in ames before school actually starts, it's pretty relaxing having fun without having to worry about classes and studying and all that jazz. A few of my friends from last year are here (a few are also RA's) , and slowly more and more will be movin' on in and I'm pretty excited about that. I have my car here which is probably the sweetest thing ever (it's a shame I won't have it next year, but I suppose that's an expense I won't have to worry about then.) I don't know exactly how its gonna be until school actually starts, but as for now things are looking UP. | | |
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