Xander’s College Life: Year 4

Chapter 5 – The final semester

Ah, so it's finally here, semester number Eight. The last time I was in this position (the end of high school), I was thinking about alll the little things that were about to end and change change. Now, well, it's an even bigger change, yet I don't seem to really care the same way. Unlike high school where I wanted to hold onto everything while I could, now I want to get outta here. Now, I want to move on and get on to the next step.

But am I ready? That's the question that's been on my mind lately; am I the person I want to be? With the skills, the friends, the knowledge ready to present to the world as myself. I need to bring my hobbies back. I need a project to work on; and skills to cultivate. I refuse to be a person defined by school, work, or the people around me. So, what to do...

Xander’s College Life: Year 4
Chapter 4 – Next steps: The biggest decision of my life (so far…)

Location/Family, Career/Growth potential, Work/Life…

I’m facing quite possibly the most significant and most difficult decision of my life up to this point, and… I’ve been putting it off for far too long, and now, finally, I’m at the end of the road. Still, I’m no better off than when I first sat down with my options. I am, of course, talking about career paths after graduation, which is coming up freakishly fast already…

I really don’t know who to turn to anymore for thoughts or advice… I’ve talked to so many people and looked at the choices from every conceivable angle. Everyone has been very helpful, and I thank whoever I’ve talked to for being insistent, yet non-interfering. For the first time since college apps oh-so-long ago, I almost wish someone would make this decision for me; someone, that could look beyond all the factors that I know, and someone who I could trust to understand me and my yet-to-be determined path better than I understand myself. (Hmm… I guess there is Someone I haven’t asked yet…)

Yet of course, no matter what, the actionable decision rests upon me… so, I’d better get things sorted out. I’ll also avoid being vague, cuz… I need to look at this realistically. BTW, I *should* be doing my ECE 398 homework for this one class right now, but… basically, Accenture wants to know by tomorrow if I’ll be joining them next year, so… that forces my hand to evaluate now… anyway, quick summary of choices:

To give some background… I am extremely happy to have gotten my internship for the past summer. There was a period that I thought I was gonna all fall apart, but taking that as a wakeup call, I clawed myself back into a favorable position. In short, I got the offer, and I’m happy with what it has. If I didn’t come into my senior year with it in hand, I would be far, far more stressed out than I am now. It’s a great offer and a great opportunity—it’s also really far away, which is both good and bad. The culture is very… “chill” I guess. You can do anything you want, as long as you get your work done. Go to work in a suit, go in t-shirt and shorts, it’s up to you! It’s also a huge company with so many teams; 78,000 employees, half of which are in Redmond, and Seattle ain’t half bad! Actually, if it wasn’t for the regional location; i.e., if MS was in Chicago, I don’t think there’d be much contest. But it’s not. It’s a stone throw away from the Pacific, and a good 2,000 miles away from home. Plus there is an excess of CS people, and you know what I think of CS people… Meh. (j/k… sort of)

This was a continuation from interview season last semester, and in all honesty, if it wasn’t for my experiences over this past summer which I talked extensively about, I don’t think getting this would have been as simple. It’s also my main complication. I’d be doing a lot of travelling; consultants work client-side a lot, and often this means lots of flying. Is this good? Travelling the country, getting exposure to a variety of other companies and their culture doesn’t sound half bad! It would suck to be stuck in… Iowa, but there’re things to learn in Iowa, I’m sure. Sure it’s not as “prestigious” as Deloitte or McKinsey, but hey… it’s not *half* bad. The work atmosphere was more “professional”, business casual seems to be the bare minimum; suits and ties commonplace. Sure, it’s comparatively a lotta get up, dress up, (and probably suck up)—but that’s all part of the fun! The workplace also seems a lot more diverse; not so many CS—one of my interviewers was actually an accounting major, the other was a computer engineer. It also felt a lot smaller; the Chicago office had about… 2-4thousand people? Oh yes, and being in downtown Chicago, it has probably, the best location of all three, but I also have the least idea about what kind of work I’d be doing… and I guess that matters, right? (minor sarcasm) I should probably make some kind of office visit, just so I have a better idea.

Now, it’s true—I’m still interviewing for these positions, so I can’t really consider them “options”, but thinking worst case scenario (or best case), I may need to evaluate them too. The job balance is probably the best, the corporate culture probably an in-between Accenture and Microsoft; professional, but still engineering solutions focused (which means, whatever it takes to get your job done). Both of these options are 2-year rotational programs, which means change in team, change in location every six months. If you’re like me, and want to know what’s out there—this is a good thing! GE also has the best name out of the three, which means I can go around proudly with branded wear without feeling like a sell-out. The bad: even though it’s a rotational program, the rotations kinda… suck. The main location is in Milwaukee, Wisconsin. Cheeseland. I.e. a shadow of the Chicago metro area. I’m sure it’s a nice place… but certainly not the most happening place. Still, being development programs, the post-graduation career potential is certainly very high… I do hope I get the offers.

So… now what? I spent a couple hours discussing it with Rohit and Anubhav—good discussion, but it didn’t let me be any surer as to what I wanted to do. If anything, I’m even more frustrated at the lack of a clear answer. At this point, no matter what decision I make, I feel like I’ll be speculating about what it would have been like, had I taken the other route. And yeah, I’m sure that 5-10 years down the line, I’ll be happy enough to not care; but at this juncture, these are very divergent career paths, and they only get more divergent with time. What to do… what to do. I should make a more ordered chart…

Well, that’s the first time I’ve ever laid it out like this… what this doesn’t consider are how important each of these are; I wouldn’t mind getting half the pay for the job of my dreams…

There’s no way I can many an empirical decision based on these numbers, and it’s futile to try… I don’t know what to do! Surprisingly, location has suddenly become very important to me; I still have two brothers about to go through high school  (a critical development time, where I may share some responsibilities for), a mom that’s overloaded with responsibilities, and a community that has supported me well for the past eight years. It’s funny, because before I was faced with this decision, I was a strong proponent of the “gotta leave the nest; gotta conquer the world!” attitude. Come decision time though, and you know what? It’s not so easy, because there are TOO many unknowns and home suddenly isn’t the place that you “have” to go to. And there is no right decision; there probably isn’t even a best decision. At this point, I feel like no matter where I go, I’m gonna wonder… what would have been like, had I taken the other route? Which sucks ,yeah?

Anyway, Accenture wants to know by TODAY (12 hours from now) what I’m gonna do. What do I need to do??!??!??!!

I’ve gotta do hw; I’ll write in the update after I figure it out…

Currently Reading The Art of Project Management (Theory in Practice (O'Reilly)) By Scott Berkun see related

Dream hunting...

Currently Listening Tattoo see related

Imagination lost...