|  I miss my family... especially my Dad. Lately, he's been calling me more than usual, just to have small talk with me. And the other week, when I came home to visit, he hugged me when he saw me right away. That's weird because I'm the one who usually reaches out to hug him and its only when I have to go back to my home in Green Bay. In the Hmong culture, daughters aren't valued as much as sons because it is the son who will hold the family name - it is the son who will send food to the parents in the after world. Its the coming of the daughter-in-law that most parents look forward to. So, just a minute ago when my Dad called to ask me how we were doing and to see if we'll be going to MN for the 4th of July, it struck me - again, that I'll be very lucky if I still have 15 to 20 more years with my Dad. As I get older, time doesn't stop like it used to when I was young and wished I was older. The years go by so fast and by the time you know it, you're in your quarter-life already and the ones you love, that are older than you, are slowly but surely dying away. I don't like to look at life through those kinds of views but, yet I can't help but see it every time I look into my parent's eyes. Its sad. Sometimes, its very "kho siab" that I can't breathe. I can't imagine life without my parents. The tears start accumulating every time I think about it. For the 4th of July weekend, my goal(s) is to spend as much time with my parents and loved ones as I can. This includes: Fishing (at my request), Picnic, Volleyball, and Golf (at my Father's request). I wish everyone a happy holidays. Spend it with the ones you love! May the grace of God protect you on your travels. 
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