Friday, July 04, 2008
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the lack of updates recently may be attributed chiefly to the fact that i've been vegetating mindlessly at home for the past few days, while everyone was up and about their own awesome lives in school. well yeah, so the past few days have been rather uneventful and boring. i've been relying on movies and guitar discussion boards to keep me sane. mmmh. alright that's about it.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
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i guess it's time for a proper update! i realise the past few entries have been private, so yeah. exams are more or less done with, save for the chemistry paper on monday. things have been okay-ish so far, with the exception of math because i'm going to get like two points for math. my GDC started screwing up on me in the morning of the math paper, and i ran out of time towards the end. the week's essentially been about making sure history facts don't leak out of my brain through my ears, long pool cafe conversations and forgetting to keep my phone in my bag during a paper. oh and, i'm a total dumbass when it comes to math.
studied at holland v today where i had the most disgusting starbucks mocha ever. i just had to buy it in venti too. basically their whipped cream dispensering-thingo was messed up, so on each of the three times they tried to put whipped cream in my drink, gross creamy white discharge came out instead. uh, and i had to drink it all up eventually (think clean thoughts).
headed down to mg after that for soundcheck for the night. playing at their talentime was pretty fun i guess. didn't expect people to turn up, but some still did. oh and i bung banged my guitar against the wall for the first time today. ****. got a cool crumpler pouch thing as a token of appreciation. pretty awesome for a night's work. playing a gig again after being opressed by exams for an entire week is rather liberating.
my xanga looks different now. looks awesome. thanks!
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things seem normal. maybe i should just ignore the bad vibes i keep getting. i hope i really am reading too deeply into all of this. some relief from the emotional exasperation would be good.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
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i really don't know what i or anyone has done to necessitate all this hate. i really thought it was all over, yet things are beginning to sour yet again. all this is so unnecessary and so tiring. i really wish the things i said about becoming desensitized to the situation were more true.
honestly, i don't see how i've turned anyone against anyone, or socially maneuvered my way into being on good terms with certain people. people who know me know i'm not like that at all. if someone has behaved in a certain way for all to see, then it's not up to me to decide what they'll eventually think, and which side of the conflict they'll eventually align themselves to. people think what they want with or without me. if i had any real control at all over what people think i wouldn't even be in this situation.
i find it extremely ridiculous that i'm being implicated in things i was never a part of. it's like being fined for speeding in a car you don't even own, much less have driven. i've never wanted any conflict. i've never really wanted to get on the wrong side of anyone. yet somehow that seems to be the case.
i don't appreciate how i supposedly am being written about in a cryptic manner. everything is just so exaggerated and deliberately damning. it really annoys me. i don't get the sadistic satisfaction certain people derive from publicly slandering someone and using their propensity to do as a threat to people who they dislike. cheap thrill at it's best.
it has become apparent that i can't say things about my life without people misintepreting what i mean. this post is not directed at whom it might seem.
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
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i guess it's time for a proper update! so the past few days have been considerably happier than the past few days preceding the past few days. if that makes any sense at all, yeah. colour my life was on sunday. probably made a big fool of myself trying to rock out and made quite a few mistakes while doing so, but yeah, it was fun! thanks to everyone who came down to watch and support the bands. oh and the mosh was quite awesome, thankssssss. i think i over-estimated the 'professional' sound crew because frankly, they su their attempts at managing the sound were highly questionable at best.
yesiknowhowtousemycrunchboxthati'vehadforoneyearkthxbai.
in other things, i have to admit that allura is really, really good. in fact, they're awesome. i've bought two local band cds in the past week. be proud of me. plainsunset and allura are awesome.
studying hasn't been going too well. hopefully i don't flunk my ass out of school when it finally reopens. i have assignments that have been overdue for obscenely long that i have yet to start on too. ugh.
i had two extractions yesterday. i've been perpetually tasting blood in my mouth since. the two gaping holes in my jaw aren't very pretty either. straight teeth better be that worth it.
oh and, tonight was fun.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
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today was a special day for many reasons.
Friday, June 13, 2008
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it's 6.34a.m. and being the bum that i am, the only reason i'm awake is because the pain is keeping me up. i have like eighty tiny bluethingsofdoom wedged in between my teeth right now and it hurts so much it's starting to not be funny anymore.
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i'm really annoyed that i lost something really special from my thumbdrive. argh. -
Thursday, June 12, 2008
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so i went to the dentist today and i finally decided to get braces. apparently i can't close my mouth properly cause of my humongobongo teeth. (not as stupid as it sounds, promise.) so like i go to the dentist and he takes a few x-rays of my teeth and like stuffs blue things in my mouth. it's sort of hurting quite a bit now. but ugh. oh and i have to pull out FOUR perfectly awesome teeth from my mouth. ggkls.
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play real guitar plz.
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