well...after much anticipation, and dominique getting on my llllllllllllaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaasssssssssssst nerve about updating, here i am!

this summer is going by very well. i've been learning so much about God it's ridiculous. yesterday eli came into town and that has been cool, just getting to talk to him and here how his summer has been going. some of the very things he has been learning about is exactly some of the things i have been learning. his mother has cancer and the doctors told her she only had three weeks to live and she almost died during break, but she went to the church for prayer and they prayed for her, and since then her fever has gone down and the cancer has shrunk. praise God!

on another note, jason should be moving in here pretty soon, which gives me very mixed feelings. on one hand i am super excited because i don't know him very well. on the other hand i'm very leary....because i don't know him very well. but it shall be very interesting regardless. oh and my room is looking tight now....

Currently Reading The Maker's Diet: The 40 Day Health Experience That Will Change Your Life Forever By Jordan Rubin see related

well everyone i'm back again. whoo, haven't updated this thing in forever and ten days. anyways this summer has been amazing and God has taken me to new heights physically, mentally and most importantly spiritually. i'll be more specific later.

well still recovering from being sick for over a month now. ive had the flu for the longest, and before that i just had an infection. but the Lord is really good. lately, ive been in reflection about the vision that God has for me, and I'm desperately seeking that, and wanting to line up with Him. I just want more of God right now, because I'm going through so many trials with people and things right now, that are testing my limits. I just need God's help to stand firm, and I know I can do it. I have so many dreams, and I've been thinking recently about how much of a dreamer I used to be, and over time so of those dreams just died, and I stopped living. But, now going into this Christmas season I just want to honor my dreams and just think about the life that God has given me. Talking about my dreams with Dominique the other night made me smile and get kind of sad at the same time. Let's see: I always wanted to be a marine biologist, I wanted to write books since the second grade, I want to be a gymnast, I want to go to the olympics in track, I want to have a library with wall to wall books, I want to travel the world and help people, I want to help heal people's hurts, I want to coach track, wow, just so many others. I have alot of talents, and alot of dreams, and I hope that in time, I can find out more and more what God wants to do with me.

on a side note, today I feel kind of down, I feel very far from God's presence :( I dont know what's the deal.