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i miss last december....
back when i was happy...actually truly happy i havent felt like that in a while
pathetic arent I?

well, not much has been happenin....

SOULFIRE was last nite, Deerfield played..good band...good band

spring break upcoming,

i was sick thursday, i was vomiting, gross....

my aunt was in the hospital, she broke her neck, but she's home now, hurrah!

if you ever need advice on how to sneak 3 guys out of your house, ask me..hehe

i found the cutest japanese food place...its over by ..that place...nvm

ok...thats all...

Jessica

Sadly, I know
   I am shorn of my strength,
And no muscle I move
   As I lie at full length-
But no matter!-I feel
   I am better at length.

And I rest so composedly,
   Now, in my bed
That any beholder
   Might fancy me dead-
Might start at beholding me,
   Thinking me dead.

The moaning and groaning,
   The sighing and sobbing,
Are quieted now,
   With that horrible throbbing
At heart:- ah, that horrible,
   Horrible throbbing!

The sickness- the nausea-
   The pitiless pain-
Have ceased, with the fever
   That maddened my brain-
With the fever called "Living"
   That burned in my brain.

And oh! of all tortures
   That torture the worst
Has abated- the terrible
   Torture of thirst
For the naphthaline river
   Of Passion accurst:-
I have drunk of a water
   That quenches all thirst:-

Of a water that flows,
   With a lullaby sound,
From a spring but a very few
   Feet under ground-
From a cavern not very far
   Down under ground.

And ah! let it never
   Be foolishly said
That my room it is gloomy
   And narrow my bed;
For man never slept
   In a different bed-
And, to sleep, you must slumber
   In just such a bed.

My tantalized spirit
   Here blandly reposes,
Forgetting, or never
   Regretting its roses-
Its old agitations
   Of myrtles and roses:

For now, while so quietly
   Lying, it fancies
A holier odor
   About it, of pansies-
A rosemary odor,
   Commingled with pansies-
With rue and the beautiful
   Puritan pansies.

And so it lies happily,
   Bathing in many
A dream of the truth
   And the beauty of Annie-
Drowned in a bath
   Of the tresses of Annie.

She tenderly kissed me,
   She fondly caressed,
And then I fell gently
   To sleep on her breast-
Deeply to sleep
   From the heaven of her breast.

When the light was extinguished,
   She covered me warm,
And she prayed to the angels
   To keep me from harm-
To the queen of the angels
   To shield me from harm.

And I lie so composedly,
   Now, in my bed,
(Knowing her love)
   That you fancy me dead-
And I rest so contentedly,
   Now, in my bed,
(With her love at my breast)
   That you fancy me dead-
That you shudder to look at me,
   Thinking me dead.

But my heart it is brighter
   Than all of the many
Stars in the sky,
   For it sparkles with Annie-
It glows with the light
   Of the love of my Annie-
With the thought of the light
   Of the eyes of my Annie.

my god i love Edgar Allan Poe........
well...thats all

later

some pictures to express my emotions currently:

enjoy:

I'm sick of life, just basically, sick of it, i'm a problem to everyone mainly..

my mom found out about my cutting, my drinking smoking she found weed that wasnt mine, jeez i havent even done that stuff in a while...i dont know, she's overreacting about it all, i cant close my door, or go out of the house...i bet i cant even see my boyfriend and i miss him utterly...

speaking of which....mann i cant see him on Valentines Day he has a basketball game, aww...he was going to sing to me aw cute...

gah i lost $2 because the seahawks lost the super bowl..that was saddening...

i dont know just all of this is an emotional OVERLOAD...i mean i was already emotinally unstable to have a relationship, and i was getting, or got over that, but now, all of this, i dont know, i cant handle things as well as others can..

so if you see me, give me a hug, or something, i dont know

im' off for now...

goodbye, hopefully not forever 

  ben ..woooooo

jessica 

meh...im updating...

i'm sick, and at home, ohhh joy...

ehh i havent been up to very much lately..super confused about...crap

i hate school....so very much, wednesday is our german field trip, woo
super cool, and...i dunno

Emery June Bleed the Dream Anberlin concert coming up soon....
i really am not too fond of Hawthorne Heights..so thats why their name isnt up there
i hate emo kids....

meh...been hangin out with ben , rachel parker,steven woo... and people...super fun

ok i'm outtie

JeSsIcA

leave me c o m m e n t s

 i hate you Frau Barnes..screw u

karls' rump

happy  birthday karl i LUV u  teehee

  i rawk....haha..my hair is all sticking up

haha woooooooo me n rachel parker in a slide

rachel parker in a swing

and...ok...this is the coolest picture in the WORLD::::::

note that concentration,...he got like....over 3 feet of air that time...

thats awesome i know..aight.lata

 dont forget my c o m m e n t s ....biotchhes