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Thursday, November 23, 2006

  • A Thank You Message (this is for those who didn't get my email)


    Dear Readers,

    I know it has been quite a while since I have written and/or talked to some of you. I have been extremely busy with classes for this semester in France. Busier that I had anticipated, but that does not mean that I have not had an awesome time studying abroad! I would do it again without a second hesitation, actually I think if I could do it again, I would do so for a longer period of time.

    It has however been long enough that I now have become accustomed to many of the different cultural idiosyncrasies. I have found as I learn more, the more I learn that there are many more commonalities than there are differences with other cultures (not just with the French, but in general). I am also finding that in my classes the Professors seem to be frequently perplexed that their use of cultural stereotypes often are oblivious to students, not because the students are obtuse, but that the stereotypes themselves are outdated in this increasingly smaller world.

    Over the years the more I have traveled the more I have adapted my personal idiosyncrasies or habits, picking and choosing the things that I do and perhaps not do, so that I am not quite so blindly following the common American stereotypes. Though, it is very difficult for me to hide the fact that I am an American…

    There is one thing that I have found that consistently identifies who I am and that is the concept of the « American Dream ». I am constantly amazed at how much of my world prospective is driven by this cultural belief or ideal.

    In some ways, I probably exhibit this notion, that « tomorrow can be better than today », that things can and will get better through hard work, devotion and the pursuit of knowledge (information). I have found that my desire to improve things, whether it be through my education or work, I am constantly (and for some irritatingly) innovating every aspect of my life, be it in school, work, technology, observations, personal research, use of services, etc. I am a person of ideas. Though, I may be a bit more strong willed at not just in creating the innovation, but pushing the need to implement it (though more often than not, I usually find the pursuit actually yields a different solution and that the pursuit of making things better can be reward within itself); the French, as a whole, by no means have this same prospective.

    Which is something I have not been able to come to terms with, I do not like mediocrity. If you are going to do something, why not do it to the fullest ability? The French response would be a bit muddled. One, if it has always been done this way, why change it? Tradition, I find is much more central to their everyday life than to ours (which I think is do purely to age the of our respective nations and the difference in history). Two, by settling for the middle road, they don’t encroach on anyone else. There is less risk there.

    Now, I do not know if one way is better than the other, but for me my worldview is so strongly centered around this « dream/concept/ideal » that I cannot see myself prescribing to anything different. However, having said that, I have and I will continue to modify and adapt my approach to achieving my goals in life and the role that I want to have today and for tomorrow. To not learn, to not change would be a fatal flaw.

    The world is constantly changing, requiring people to interact in ways that they have never been faced with in the past. The Romans united an empire through the construction of roads. The roads of today’s world are not made of just stone but of ones and zeros (the internet), we are abound with access to relatively affordable transcontinental transportation, and the world’s seemingly growing expectance that people have at least a minor understanding of other cultures/societies.

    The problem of course is that even with all of the new roads, we still seldom have any means of real communication with each other, worldly or domestically. I have a hard time understanding this, because to me unity, cooperation does not necessarily mean that you have to agree with each other, varying prospective does not have to divide us, but rather can unite us. All we « have to do » is learn to communicate. If we can move past just peering through a window in the wall that divides us and to actually opening the door, even if it’s just opened a crack – think about what all we could achieve.

    Of course it is not quite as simple as just opening a door, we have a tendency to fear what we do not know or understand. There is risk involved, it can be raw and brutal, but it can be ever so delightful and insightful. Even being confronted with harsh reality can be a rewarding experience into itself, think how much we grow after being striped to our core – it can be and often times is an humiliating experience, but are we not usually better for it in the end?

    Anyone that has talked to me more than just in passing probably has heard me talk about a Nietzschean concept that through our interactions with each other, the reactions that we receive are mirrors into ourselves. If we sit in the room and never go outside, are we not just missing out on the things that the world has to offer, but are we not missing out on things that we have to offer, not just to the world, but to ourselves?

    I write this « Thanksgiving Message » to humbly thank you. Whether, I have interacted with you a little or a lot, you have helped me grow. You have helped me learn who I am, you have helped me learn about the reality of the world and you have helped me learn how to reach for my dreams. For that I am very thankful.

    The world is an ever changing place, it is impressionable on to us and us on to it. Let us not be complacent in our interactions with each other. Let us not forget what it means to be human. Let us make the most of today so that our children can make the most of tomorrow.

    I sincerely hope this letter finds you well. I wish I had more time to write you each individually, but, please, if you have a moment to say hello, I would absolutely appreciate it.
    Sincerely,


    Evan Ashcraft

Sunday, July 09, 2006

  • I am in such a weird place right now. Not in the physical sense, more emotional, mental or metaphysical or something... I don't know if I should even write about it or not, but I have this desire yell it out to at the top of my lungs!! But alas, I won't because it itself is not mine to share (at least not on such a public forum as this). Even with everything else going on and the resurgence of heart-health issues, the future doesn't always look grim.

     

Sunday, June 18, 2006

  • Wow, so it has been a long while since I have posted on this thing. A lot has happened...I have had my second heart surgery that was a relative success. I go in tomorrow to find out what is next, if I will just be on medication or what not. I have scheduled my gull bladder surgery for August. Right now I leave for Washington DC the 14th and London on the 16th of August. Though, I am looking at modifying my schedule to fly directly into France. Aurore isn't going to be able to get off until the 2nd of September and with me having to be in Angers by the 4th, doesn't leave much time for England.

    I have just finished an awesome with my friend Maddie who came up from Oklahoma. What an amazing girl. I am constantly amazed at how much she has to offer the world. I really enjoyed hanging out with her and I hope she did as well. We went to Oak Park, Country Club Plaza and down Mass Street shopping. I found it fun, went into a few stores that I never would have on my own, it was interesting to see some variety of things.

    She was kind enough to stay for my dinner party Thursday night and was crucial in making it happen. a little more than two hours till an incident drastically raised my heart rate up to the point of convulsions. It was nice that she was there to sit on the floor with me and help me relax. It helps that she has an understanding from personal experience as to what this would be like. The whole incident really threw off the rest of the party but between Maddie and Leanna who came early it came out okay, though I just couldn't enjoy it -- stupid heart rate.

    One of the things I miss most about Maddie now is our random chit-chatting in the morning, though it was only for a few days I am now spoiled. It is so much more fun to getting ready to start the day with someone than it is waking up at o'dark hundred, showering, getting dressed and going straight to work with out saying a word.

    Oh by the way, I am getting married. I should be registered at the Jones Store. Don't worry it isn't until Fall of 2007. According to the sells lady, there is no reason I why I would like to look at china wear if I wasn't engaged, so therefore I must be. I couldn't get her to leave me alone until she gave me her complete spill/handouts that just later went in to the trash.

    I am very eager for France trip, but I am even more eager to get to hangout with Aurore some. As I have said I have absolutely no idea as to where the future will lead us, but I can say that there is something about her that grabs me every time I get a chance to communicate with her. I wonder if she feels it too. Bless her heart though, sometimes she seems more eager than me to get a chance to see me. Slowly the more I get to know her the more and more beautiful a person she becomes.

    I have been trying not to build France/school/travel/relationship up, but I cannot help it. Even though I am passed this last surgery, I feel like there will be more to come. My heart is not fixed. It has been patched to help get by. I don't know what to do with that. I do know I want to start living my life and spending that time doing things with the people I want to be with and travel the world doing so. (any serious carear suggestions, please send my way.)

    Other wise what can I do but to work towards a dream. "What is the point of any life, without the pursuit of a dream?"

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Sunday, May 14, 2006

  • Dear Reader,

    I woke up this morning and had a wonderful email waiting for me. It amazes me how a few beautiful, yet simple words can make the day so much better. I have been fighting myself, trying not to be too eager for August to come, but that path is difficult for me to follow now that I know she cannot wait either.

    It seems too surreal to me. The irony is that I want to live in this moment for as long as I can because it is full of hope and desire, something we seem to not have very much in our daily lives anymore.

    Do you ever think back to day one? To that moment when everything collides and a choice is made that determines the direction that your life goes in?

    Hope is much needed today and the next eight days. It's all wearing on me. I just need for this second surgery to work. I don't want to feel like this in Europe.

    Evan

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