Honestly, we all need to keep asking ourselves who we're living for. In the past four years I know I was initially living for myself until it got so warped and I lost all sense of self. It's not nice to be at a standstill.
But once you know, the going gets SO MUCH easier. Embrace your very personality. Because it's special. I know mine is.
And you know what, yeah, damn right Emiko is the kinda girl to date the type of guys with the 5 Cs. MY 5 Cs: Courteous, Considerate, Caring, Charismatic, Chivalrous.
My life. My rules.
Et puis j'ai un examen francais et je veux etudier!!! merde merde merde!!
In a whirl of emotions many things become apparent to you. The past four years can be summed up in one word : a struggle. And it too can be described in one word : colorful. You live and you learn. It takes a lot of courage to keep on toiling when all odds are against you, and everything seems out of place. Sometimes you think it's the other way round. You're just at the wrong place and wrong time. Like an anachronism.
If there's anything I need to heed more, it would be what Ariel wrote in my yearbook a couple of years ago. Limit your trust. I usually take people to be genuine and sincere when I meet them first up but more often than not they let you down. The past few days, or weeks even, have been confusing and complicated. Emotions I could never describe surfaced and I searched so hard for what was missing within. Then you're hit with so many tasks that you wonder how the world can expect someone so broken to function. What hits you more is how the people who matter can't see how broken everything seems.
And then when offered the choice of either being Icarus or Isis as the road to freedom, you choose Athena. One so powerful who has everything under control. One that no man can touch, and one who changes everything in existence at your own desire.
So then I decide, maybe I'll put my cleats back on. Just not so soon.
and then she left in a flutter of wings with the unicorns that run forever free and the trees that sweep by the ages with their leaves golden and wise
It's funny how the days take us back and forth, and back and forth, and back and forth. You realize there just is no end to an abyss, that's why its called as such. It keeps going on and on, like a dry late-monday night lecture. No, you won't do anything to take control. You'll let things just float by. One. Two. Three. Yeah. They've all passed by. And you let them all slip away.
No dreams don't just fade away, just as people don't. People. Do. Not. Fade. All the world's a stage, Dare to shine.
HAPPY THINGYAN PEOPLE!!! =) Those ISY days at the water pandals and crazy firehoses while riding at the back of pickup trucks are awesome memories that'll stay with me forever =)
