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sorry, i know it's been forever, but i've been real busy with work.
i have been online, but i just haven't really had time to make an update.
but i am site of the week on nks_quotes, so i figured i should make an update.
i'll try to make it a good sized one, but if i don't, i'll do my best to another time.

ps; it's my [18th]birthday. (:

Sisters;

ask if you want to be one!

[1]  Seeing him was like hearing an
old song come on the radio; bringing
up so many old feelings & memories
that you can't tune them out.

[2]  You've got to follow your passion.
You've got to figure out what it is
you love -- who you really are. And
have the courage to do that. I believe
that the only courage anybody ever needs
is the courage to follow your own dreams.
[ Oprah Winfrey ]

[3]  It's really easy for someone to say "oh, things will get better" or "if you're at the bottom, the only place to go is up." You don't know what their life is like. No matter where you are, things can get worse. They can, & for some people, they do. Only they know their life. Only they can pick the road to go on. No one can choose it for them.

[4]  You hug him goodbye like it's nothing... while all
you want to do is hold on forever. But you let go,
smile & walk away. Then cry all the way home because
you know it will never be the same. Because try as you
might, you can't make someone love you. Sometimes,
you have to let them be free... & letting go,
that is when love hurts the most.

[5]  Keep looking up, Mama used to tell me.
There’s nothing on the ground but your feet.

[6]  Life is full of pain ;;
Of course it is.
But that is no excuse to give up

[7]  You forced me to become strong,
When I craved to be weak.

[8]  Sometimes, we expect too much. The key
is to just expect nothing. That one time when
you're not all caught up in thinking about
what you want to happen, it will.

[9]  A best friend is someone
who screams to you in the
hallways saying, "I love you,"
not caring if anyone thinks
they're a lesbian, only caring
that you hear them everytime.

[10]  I'm the one that has to die when it's time for
me to die, so let me live my life the way I want to.
[ Jimi Hendrix ]

[11]  I'm not staring at your butt;
I'm just admiring your back pockets. ;)

[12]  Love is like a job.
Once you have your experience,
you will learn how to work it out.
If you get fired, you find another one
& you learn to move on.

[13]  Sometimes it just takes patience for everything to happen. You won't get respect in just one day, you can't be in love with someone that you just met & you won't be able to forgive yourself in a second. I've learned that helping people is good, but helping someone too much won't let them grow. You grow by making mistakes, getting hurt, & learning from your regrets. Thoughts are there to help guide you to your decision. It's you that have to take that first step into the pathway of happiness. It's your doing that makes you who you are. Don't assume; get your fact straight. That is what messes a lot of people up. There's always the true story & reasoning behind everything. We are all different, but have one thing in common; we all want happiness. It is like we're all trying to fight for it, trying to get what we want & it make us forget the whole reason why we wanted it in the first place. Nobody said life is going to be easy; life is what you make of it. Change for the better; don't change for someone else. Change for yourself. Don't be selfish. Don't limit yourself from doing things just because you don't think you can make it through. Remember -- time isn't going to wait for you, so make the best of it.

[14]  If he's willing to let go & forget,
there was nothing there in the first place.

[15]  Even a trillion hearts are still too few
to hold all the love I have for you <3

[16]  We talk like we know what's going on, but we don't. We don't know anything. We're young & we're gonna screw up a lot. We're gonna keep changing our minds, & sometimes our hearts. And through all that, the only real thing we can offer each other is forgiveness.
-Dawson's Creek

[17]  Love is like life; it lives, then eventually it dies.

[18]  She may be young, but she's not naive.
She hasn't been through much,
but she knows what hurt feels like.

[19]  I wrote you a letter today filled with all my pain, sorrow, & love & I sealed it in an envelope. Working endless hard shifts & I notice all these couples around me & I feel the stinging pain in my chest & the urge to break down & cry. I just miss you so much; you don't understand how I feel when I'm not with you. Without you I feel so alone & so isolated. I can't help but want to be held by you once again. This pain, it's called love, right?

[20]  When it comes to wishes & dreaming, I know what I want. But what if what I want is something I can't have? I am 110% sure that I want you. I want you in my life so bad. And you know why? Because you make me so happy, & when I met you I felt like I had known you forever & rest is infinite. But then you punched out of my life, like the end of a days work. I know I want you here next to me, but that’s just not going to happen. So why do we wish & dream if we know we’re just wasting our time?
[ashleyloveslife]

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sorry i haven't update in a bit, i've been kinda busy and tired.
i'll try my best to update tomorrow, but for now, does anyone want to be vip?  if so, comment me here and i'll look at your site.  i need some, i just haven't found anyone yet, so just ask!  you may be one.

also, ask about being sisters. 
can't ever have too many sisters, that's for sure.

and to everyone that commented me, sorry if i didn't comment back. <3
[changed the font color to black, btw.  sorry layout maker!]

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Sisters;

ask if you want to be one!

[1]  Love doesn't hold grudges. It doesn't keep thinking over & over again about how someone hurt you. Love doesn't give up just cause something goes wrong or cause your feelings are hurt. Those who love just keep right on loving.

[2]  Best friends hang tough. They don't come with 'Fragile' stickers & aren't easily scared off or ticked off. Best friends help you out whenever they can, make time for you even when they don't have any, & trust your friendship enough to say 'No'. Best friends are cross-your-heart-&-hope-to-die, good-times-&-bad-times, borrow-anything, tell-you-everything, trust-you-with-their-deepest-darkest-secrets, always-&-forever friends.

[3]  What's up with this 'perfect image'? There's no such thing as perfect, yet, here we are. Trying to dye our hair a certain colour, going on diets to be thin, buying all the brand name stuff, and covering every single pimple with make-up. Give it up, no matter how 'perfect' you make yourself seem, someone's just going to pin-point one thing that's 'not perfect' and in the end, it's not even worth it.

[4]  Sometimes enough is enough. You need to stand up for what's right and wrong. You need to tell people to screw off, because this is your own life. Don't let people take control over you, because soon enough everyone will try to.

[5]  You don't have to believe me anymore, I know that. I lost your trust & all I can do is gain it back, somehow, any way possible. I know I say a lot of things to make you smile; I do that with everyone. Making people smile is something I do, but with you it's different. Every time we touch, every time we cuddle. Every time we kiss. I know it's hard to believe me because you don't know if you can trust me. It's about time I show you that you can. Lemme tell you this, I can stick to one girl, & that's what I'm doing. I have to show you how much you really mean to me. I thought I did, but it wasn't enough. It's not worth it if you don't earn it, & that's exactly why I'm gonna continue fighting for you. You may not know it, but you're worth every tear & every bruise. My heart speeds up not because I'm lying, it's because you're so close to me, you take my breath away. It's hard to breathe because I wanna take in every scent of you. My heart races because I wanna catch up to you & keep you in my lane. I don't wanna let you slip, not again. I hope you know what I express to you is sincere. Yes, I may have liked her, but I must tell you they were mixed emotions. Mainly because they were someone I was able to confide in. But in the blink of an eye, I cut that person out because I needed you to know I love you, most importantly, I needed you to believe me.

[6]  A best friend is there when you have nothing
& more importantly when you feel like nothing.

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this isn't the best entry or the longest, i agree.
i'll do a better one later on.  for now, i'm tired <3

Sisters;

ask if you want to be one!

[1]  Sometimes someone comes into your life that changes everything.
Raises your standards,
makes you laugh,
and makes you feel like you.
there's something about him that you cant put into words,
and even though you're not with him,
you dont want to let him go.

[2]  It's when you can't stop smiling and he's the one
you feel happiest with. There's just that one thing
about him you just don't see in other guys; and
when you're not with him, the only place
 you want to be is in his arms

[3]  It's not easy, is it? Fighting for something you could have had & wondering if maybe it's already too late.

[4]  She wants to forget everything about the
times when they were together --
not because she doesn't love him --
but because it hurts too much to remember

[5]  I miss us. I miss how we used to be.
How we used to talk, smile, laugh.
How we used to be real friends
who could trust each other with everything.
What happened to all that?

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Sisters;

ask if you want to be one!

[1]  I like cute guys. Not necessarily the hottest guy, but the one that's clumsy & crazy & always makes me smile. You know what I mean? Like he might not be Abercrombie potential, but he still has all my attention. No, not in the show-offy type of way, but in the I'm-totally-cool-with-who-I-am kind of way. Like he can smile at me & I know we were meant for this, for us. It would be like, he wouldn't always know what to say & when to say it, but he would want to. Because sometimes caring enough to try really is enough. And for us it would be. He'd be spontaneous, always doing something I would have never expected would make me fall in love. The kind of guy that is so proud to be yours. The kind that has an amazing family that you feel at home with. You know, the kind of guy that is your best friend, but the only person you could ever see yourself with at the same time. He would love me for everything I am, for real, not just say it like everyone else always does. He would mean it & I wouldn't have to think twice to know he was telling the truth. And maybe we'd be exact opposites, but that what would make our relationship great. Working at it. Because without the work, it wouldn't really be worth it.

[2]  She's almost sixteen years old. She's not perfect; never has been, probably never will be. She's emotional and she doesn't think about things before she says them. She'll say some things that will make you want to strangle her. She'll probably hurt you and make more mistakes than you can imagine. She doesn't mean to, but she probably will. However, she'll apologize. She's still learning about everything, even if she thinks she already knows it. She's been hurt; sometimes she feels so alone she can't stand it. Other times she's so happy she can't belive it. She's just trying to figure out this twisted time in her life when everything gets real complicated real fast and everything seems to spin out of control before she ever begins to understand what's going on. But she loves, laughs, and does her best and that's all you can ever ask of her.

[3]  I just want you to hug me one more time,
because the only thing in this world that
scares me is that I'll never feel that safe again.

[4]  If your man isn't giving you
the attention you want,
the affection you desire,
the time you deserve,
& the love you need,
then you need to find someone else who will.

[5]  Don't judge a book by its cover,
because what you find inside might be
just what you're looking for <3